wahhh... lama sdh sya update oo ni blog sya ni...hehehe... mcm berkulat2 sdh ni sya tgk... mau ckp sya telampau busy, x juga... mau ckp x dapat update sbb line internet problem pun bukan juga...hahaha ada broadband ba ini....wakakaka tp jarang guna la...hihi... nah... sedar x sedar mau masuk hampir 3 bulan sdh sya jd single...hihi... single and available ba knun ni...nahhh...sapa mau kc jadi sya gf dia? mai3...hahahahahahah.....doii ba mulau ni budak...hahaha.... bah... sya mau kc trus la cerita sya ni kali....sbb lama sdh betul sya nda p jenguk2 ni blog sya..hehehe... apaaa ceta sya ni kali aaa?? hehehe...baru knun mau berfikir...sot2 uda ni budak ni...hahahahha..
ok la... sya cerita dr mula laa...hehehe... 1st, pasal ex-boyfriend sya...nah mcm xda perasaan sdh ni kalo sebut pun nama dia...hihi...sya tau... dia sbnarnya bukan suka sya pun dr mula... sya pun nda tau amcm sya blh tersuka dia ni... yala... at first memg rasa syok, best kwn dgn dia... tp... hmm... betul la kata org... kalo x selalu jumpa tu memg x sama perasaan dia dgn yang selalu berjumpa... huhu... ntah la mcm mana, susah mau ckp... kalo ckp pun nt sya geram sendiri saja...hihihi jd..bgs g jgn ckp apa2...hahah... actually sya cuma mau ckp, sya rasa agak kecewa dgn dia... agak dan sangat kecewa... hmm.... dia lebih pentingkan rupa luaran.... he wants someone that is perfect, and i cannot be that perfect as how he wished....huhu...sya x juga menyesal jd imperfect, sya bersyukur lg... sbb kerana itu sya belajar sesuatu drpd percintaan... kalo kita mau mencintai seseorang, kita harus menerima dia seadanya... segala buruk, baik, kurang dan lebih dia.... ramai org kata begini, tp kalo dorg betul2 dapat gf yang imperfect, adakah dorg akan kata begitu?? hahaha... mustahil ba kan.... hmm.... sya masih ingat lg, time kami jalan2 sama2... dia kata dengan sya "jangan risau, nt ikut sya balik kampung aaa"....huhuhu tp itu d depan sya.... nahh.... skali bila sya balik penang sdh... lain2 sdh dia ckp.... tembirang nopo kan....tp xpala... sya fhm juga tu napa dia x dapat terima sya...yala bukan senang mau terima orang mcm sya ni... apa lagi mau kc jadi gf.... bikin malu ba kan???hmm... xpalaaaa.....nda juga be sya mati ni xda bf...hahahahahaha.... k.. tamat cerita pasal dia... oyaaa... ada lg pula... tau ka.... semalam jam 1 pagi dia kol sya!!!!! gila weiii..... takajut sya...hahaha.... nah...baru dia tau....pandai juga merindu sya aaa...wakakaka... :P dia ada ckp lg juga pasal bestfren sya yang dia minat tu.... tp ni kali laa... xda sya rasa apa2 ni.... xda rasa jeles ckittt pun.... hohoho kalo dlu..jelos siottt sya...hahaha punya buduh sya... tp...itu la ba... sya punya slogan "THE FIRST WILL BE THE LAST" tu nda blh pakai sdh...hahahaha.... mcm mana kalo sya tukar jd "THE LAST WILL BE FOREVER AND EVER" wakakakakaka..... nda la mau declare dlu...bahaya....xmau lg pisang berbuah 2 kali... tp kalo pun tu pisang pandai berbuah 2 kali, sya makan trus laa buah dia...hahahahhaa sotttt.... :P
2nd thing... sya mau cuti sudah...hehehe.... abis sdh praktikal sem5 sya... so next sem i'll be in class again....warrghhh...huhuhu... paning balik....hadoii... mesti busy sdh tu time tu... x sdh blh main2 d.... hmm... yala.. pa blh buat la..guhuuhu.... ckp pasal praktikal sya...syok juga la... ada pahit ada manis... paling manis time d OPD... hehehe sbb blh tgk wajah pharmacist comel hari2..huahuahua...syokkk....tp yang last day praktikal sdh sya xda tejumpa dia...huhuhu sedihh... tp xpa la....lain hari kalo ada jodoh ter=jumpa juga ba tu kan?yes3....hehehe...
huhhh..pnat sdh tgn sya menaip d... mau rehat dlu laa... nt baru tls lg...hehehe....k...chowwwww..... :)
God... thanks for everything... i always love u God... (^_^)
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
sya pun mau juga....
pagi ni sya buka Fb...ramai org in a relationship with....hmm... sya pun mau juga.... teringin ba... huhu... tp yala kan.. sapa la yg mau sya ni... sudah la nda cantik.. nda perfect lg... hmm... bf yg sya syg pun x dapat terima sya.... so, lebih baik sya jd single.... tp... sometime.... mcm mau juga ni ba ada someone.... layakkah sya ada bf? besinta pun x pndai... kuat mrajuk lg... hmm... xpa la... mau abis study sdh juga ni.... mgkn kalo sya p tempat lain sdh jumpa la kali... hmm...nda tau la... sya rasa mcm tawar hati sdh... tp ntah knapa sya rasa teringin juga... buduh ba sya ni kan? hmm.... biarla...
skrg sya mau senyum saja... sbb mcm susah sdh mau senyum ni... hati sya betul2 terluka ba... sakittt jauh di dalam.... hmmm...
Tuhan.... terima kasih utk segalanya... sya harap sya akan lebih gembira slpas ini... AMEN....
skrg sya mau senyum saja... sbb mcm susah sdh mau senyum ni... hati sya betul2 terluka ba... sakittt jauh di dalam.... hmmm...
Tuhan.... terima kasih utk segalanya... sya harap sya akan lebih gembira slpas ini... AMEN....
Thursday, May 19, 2011
God... i don't feel regret... i just feel a bit guilty, for hurting his heart... God.. why am I being so cruel? i can feel that this is not me.... Patricia whom You love so much is not a kind of person like this... i know myself well... God....... i'm so sorry for having that bad feeling toward him... i don't to actually, but... sya x dapat terima...mcm sya kena kc bodoh2 ja.... sya sedar sya mcm mana...sya sedar.... hmm.... betul2 sudah tawar.........................sangat tawar..... sya mcm trauma sdh mau suka org.... hmm.... God, heal me.. :(
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
PERUBAHAN YANG X DISANGKA.....
17/08/2010...TARIKH ITU BENAR2 TELAH BAGI SUATU SEJARAH DALAM HIDUP SYA YG X AKAN PERNAH SYA LUPAKAN BUAT SEUMUR HIDUP SYA....PERUBAHAN YG X PERNAH SYA JANGKA AKAN BERLAKU SEAWAL INI.....EMM...I'VE FOUND MY FIRST....AND I HOPE THAT HE WILL BE MY LAST...HOPEFULLY, GOD WILLS......EMM....SLPAS TERLALU BYK DUGAAN YG DIHADAPI, AKHIRNYA TERMETERAI JUGA.....EMM....SEOGA TUHAN AKAN SENTIASA MENYERTAI KAMI DALAM PERJALANAN HIDUP KAMI....SEMOGA KASIH SAYANG YG SEDANG HADIR D HATI INI AKAN BERTAMBAH FROM TIME TO TIME....N SYA HARAP DIA AKAN DAPAT TERIMA SYA SEADANYA..... THANKS FOR EVERYTHING MY GOD....U REALLY SHOW ME YOUR GREATEST LOVE TO ME...AMEN....
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
sipiking....
Hari ni sya rasa mcm sya mau spiking laa....hehe lama sdh sya nda spiking ni...hehee....
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...
Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....
Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa
Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...
Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....
Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa
Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
RESULTKU..... hehehe
Emmm....hari ni masuk seminggu sdh syabalik penang slpas bercuti lbh kurg sebulan.....hmmm setakat ni blum lg ada apa2 assignment....baru minggu pertama kan, blum lg tau tu next week yo....huish mesti byk assignment tu...hmmm....malas o sya kalo banyak yo ni....haish....tapi kalo dgr dr kata2 lecturers nampaknya begitu la ni...huhuhu....kuroyon po be...mimang begitu no bogia kalo sdh masuk sem2 yo....hee terimala ja la Pat....hmm....
Nah kmi masuk2 ja semester 3 ni trus ada result semester 2 dipaparkan d student center d Waziria.....wuhuhu....tapi bgs jg ba, bila awal result kluar awal juga la kluar duit nt....hehehe....kali ni sya kena betul2 berjimat, kena bajet betul2 sdh sbb byk betul keperluan utk sem3 ni....yg paling utama ialah, beli tiket kapal balik sabah nt..hehe...sdh kami kna kc tgk takwim akademik utk sem3 ni....cun2 1-11-2010 kmi punya cuti....sampai 20-11-2010 kalo nda silap sya....huhuhu 3 minggu ja...bukan itu ba yg menyedihkan....yg plg menyedihkan itu ialah, XDAPAT BERKRISMAS DGN FAMILY tahun ni......hmm..nampaknya tahun ni berkrismas d Penang aja la ni....huhuhu...xpa la, tahan ja la Pat.....(padahal nangis2 sdh ni..huhu)....aiyoo terlupa pula sya dgn apa sebenarnya yg sya mau tulis ni..aish tu no gia melalut nopo karaja..hehehe....bah, sbnrnya sya mau ckp pasal result sem2 sya ba ni....happy betul ni sya...walaupun bukan yg terbaik or tertinggi, tp at least sya sdh mencapai target sya utk sem2..iaitu, mau dapat lebih drpd 3.75 n kc kalah tu org....n thanks God!!! Betul2 dapat oo....hehehe...sem ni sya betul2 meningkat..naik 0.10 woo...hehe..sya happy tapi ada keciwa ckit la sbb sya pnya CGPA x mencapai 3.80....dakat sdh ba, 0.02 ja lg....huhuhu.....emm tapi xpa la sem ni kena struggle lebih lg....harapan bapa yg tercinta tu...hehe....ok ckp pasal result sya....hmmmmmmmmmmmm......sya dapat 4 A, 2 A- dan 1 B menghasilkan 3.83!!!! yeahoo.....hehehe....Medical emergency tu ja ba yg spoil. Kalo nda A dan A- ja keputusan sya tu..haish....tapi nda pa la, apa2 pun sya sngt2 bersyukur pada Tuhan!!! TERIMA KASIH TUHAN!!!! AKU SAYANG DAN CINTA PADAMU!!! WO AI NI!!!!I LOVE U!!SARANG HAE YO!!! AI SHI TAE RU!! UPUS OKU DIAH OI TUHAN KOGINAWAANKU!!! Heheheehehee.......nah Tuhan, happy betul sdh anak Kau ni....hehehhe...mcm tu aja, tapi sya memang betul2 happy..sya happy bukan saja sbb result sya, tapi juga sbb Tuhan dgr doa2 sya...skrg sya betul2 yakin Dia benar2 sayang dan cinta akan sya..I REALLY LOVE YOU, MY GOD!!!hehehe......sabar ko Pat....Tuhan sdh jawab tu...dia bilang “ I LOVE YOU MORE MY DEAR CHLID!!!!” eehehehehehe.....(^_______________^)
GOD, THANK U FOR EVERYTHING YOU’VE GAVE ME.....THANKS FOR THE RESULT, THANKS FOR THE HAPPINESS....I REALLY APPRECIATE THEM...DO OPEN MY EYES, MY MIND AND MY HEART WIDER SO THAT I CAN DO BETTER AND FULFILL MY FATHER’S HOPE ON ME.....I LOVE HIM SO MUCH THAT I DON’T WANT TO DISAPPOINT HIM....YA TUHAN, PERTINGKATKAN LAH USAHA KU SUPAYA AKU DAPAT MENCAPAI CITA2 KU DAN HARAPAN BAPAKU...AMEN!!! (^_^)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
tHe maKeOver....
Before.......
After....
Hehehehehe.....mcm ni la rupa kalo org yg x pernah bersolek tiba2 disolek....hehehehe pelik nopo itu wajah....hahaha tapi orgnya tetap sama, PATRICIA juga....hehehe (^____^)
After....
Hehehehehe.....mcm ni la rupa kalo org yg x pernah bersolek tiba2 disolek....hehehehe pelik nopo itu wajah....hahaha tapi orgnya tetap sama, PATRICIA juga....hehehe (^____^)
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