sipiking....

Hari ni sya rasa mcm sya mau spiking laa....hehe lama sdh sya nda spiking ni...hehee....
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...

Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....

Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa

Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...