Wednesday, August 18, 2010
PERUBAHAN YANG X DISANGKA.....
17/08/2010...TARIKH ITU BENAR2 TELAH BAGI SUATU SEJARAH DALAM HIDUP SYA YG X AKAN PERNAH SYA LUPAKAN BUAT SEUMUR HIDUP SYA....PERUBAHAN YG X PERNAH SYA JANGKA AKAN BERLAKU SEAWAL INI.....EMM...I'VE FOUND MY FIRST....AND I HOPE THAT HE WILL BE MY LAST...HOPEFULLY, GOD WILLS......EMM....SLPAS TERLALU BYK DUGAAN YG DIHADAPI, AKHIRNYA TERMETERAI JUGA.....EMM....SEOGA TUHAN AKAN SENTIASA MENYERTAI KAMI DALAM PERJALANAN HIDUP KAMI....SEMOGA KASIH SAYANG YG SEDANG HADIR D HATI INI AKAN BERTAMBAH FROM TIME TO TIME....N SYA HARAP DIA AKAN DAPAT TERIMA SYA SEADANYA..... THANKS FOR EVERYTHING MY GOD....U REALLY SHOW ME YOUR GREATEST LOVE TO ME...AMEN....
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
sipiking....
Hari ni sya rasa mcm sya mau spiking laa....hehe lama sdh sya nda spiking ni...hehee....
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...
Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....
Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa
Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...
Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....
Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa
Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
RESULTKU..... hehehe
Emmm....hari ni masuk seminggu sdh syabalik penang slpas bercuti lbh kurg sebulan.....hmmm setakat ni blum lg ada apa2 assignment....baru minggu pertama kan, blum lg tau tu next week yo....huish mesti byk assignment tu...hmmm....malas o sya kalo banyak yo ni....haish....tapi kalo dgr dr kata2 lecturers nampaknya begitu la ni...huhuhu....kuroyon po be...mimang begitu no bogia kalo sdh masuk sem2 yo....hee terimala ja la Pat....hmm....
Nah kmi masuk2 ja semester 3 ni trus ada result semester 2 dipaparkan d student center d Waziria.....wuhuhu....tapi bgs jg ba, bila awal result kluar awal juga la kluar duit nt....hehehe....kali ni sya kena betul2 berjimat, kena bajet betul2 sdh sbb byk betul keperluan utk sem3 ni....yg paling utama ialah, beli tiket kapal balik sabah nt..hehe...sdh kami kna kc tgk takwim akademik utk sem3 ni....cun2 1-11-2010 kmi punya cuti....sampai 20-11-2010 kalo nda silap sya....huhuhu 3 minggu ja...bukan itu ba yg menyedihkan....yg plg menyedihkan itu ialah, XDAPAT BERKRISMAS DGN FAMILY tahun ni......hmm..nampaknya tahun ni berkrismas d Penang aja la ni....huhuhu...xpa la, tahan ja la Pat.....(padahal nangis2 sdh ni..huhu)....aiyoo terlupa pula sya dgn apa sebenarnya yg sya mau tulis ni..aish tu no gia melalut nopo karaja..hehehe....bah, sbnrnya sya mau ckp pasal result sem2 sya ba ni....happy betul ni sya...walaupun bukan yg terbaik or tertinggi, tp at least sya sdh mencapai target sya utk sem2..iaitu, mau dapat lebih drpd 3.75 n kc kalah tu org....n thanks God!!! Betul2 dapat oo....hehehe...sem ni sya betul2 meningkat..naik 0.10 woo...hehe..sya happy tapi ada keciwa ckit la sbb sya pnya CGPA x mencapai 3.80....dakat sdh ba, 0.02 ja lg....huhuhu.....emm tapi xpa la sem ni kena struggle lebih lg....harapan bapa yg tercinta tu...hehe....ok ckp pasal result sya....hmmmmmmmmmmmm......sya dapat 4 A, 2 A- dan 1 B menghasilkan 3.83!!!! yeahoo.....hehehe....Medical emergency tu ja ba yg spoil. Kalo nda A dan A- ja keputusan sya tu..haish....tapi nda pa la, apa2 pun sya sngt2 bersyukur pada Tuhan!!! TERIMA KASIH TUHAN!!!! AKU SAYANG DAN CINTA PADAMU!!! WO AI NI!!!!I LOVE U!!SARANG HAE YO!!! AI SHI TAE RU!! UPUS OKU DIAH OI TUHAN KOGINAWAANKU!!! Heheheehehee.......nah Tuhan, happy betul sdh anak Kau ni....hehehhe...mcm tu aja, tapi sya memang betul2 happy..sya happy bukan saja sbb result sya, tapi juga sbb Tuhan dgr doa2 sya...skrg sya betul2 yakin Dia benar2 sayang dan cinta akan sya..I REALLY LOVE YOU, MY GOD!!!hehehe......sabar ko Pat....Tuhan sdh jawab tu...dia bilang “ I LOVE YOU MORE MY DEAR CHLID!!!!” eehehehehehe.....(^_______________^)
GOD, THANK U FOR EVERYTHING YOU’VE GAVE ME.....THANKS FOR THE RESULT, THANKS FOR THE HAPPINESS....I REALLY APPRECIATE THEM...DO OPEN MY EYES, MY MIND AND MY HEART WIDER SO THAT I CAN DO BETTER AND FULFILL MY FATHER’S HOPE ON ME.....I LOVE HIM SO MUCH THAT I DON’T WANT TO DISAPPOINT HIM....YA TUHAN, PERTINGKATKAN LAH USAHA KU SUPAYA AKU DAPAT MENCAPAI CITA2 KU DAN HARAPAN BAPAKU...AMEN!!! (^_^)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
tHe maKeOver....
Before.......
After....
Hehehehehe.....mcm ni la rupa kalo org yg x pernah bersolek tiba2 disolek....hehehehe pelik nopo itu wajah....hahaha tapi orgnya tetap sama, PATRICIA juga....hehehe (^____^)
After....
Hehehehehe.....mcm ni la rupa kalo org yg x pernah bersolek tiba2 disolek....hehehehe pelik nopo itu wajah....hahaha tapi orgnya tetap sama, PATRICIA juga....hehehe (^____^)pRopOsAL....
emm...mau dkat jam 3 pagi sdh tapi sya masih x tdo2 lg....aish...amu oku kodop boo ti...men facebook pun boring...tgh2 subuh mcm ni tersangatlaa boring, sdh la x ramai org chat, benda yg mau dikomen pun xda....aishhh....mata pula xmau tdo....mau jg sya ambil Zoloft kut ini...hahaha jgn baa Pat..nda bagus moti itu....hehehe.... Dalam keboringan ini, meninguk la ba kunun sya msg2 sya d hp.....emm....blum lg sya padam msg c Spongy ari tu.....hmm....nda tau la mau c jadi apa ni, mau c jadi gimat mangkali..hehe.....fikir balik ttg apa yg dia ckp ari tu....mmm btul2 x sangka oo dia msh x berputus asa lg.....ini sdh masuk 3 kali sya reject dia secara baik....tapi dia masih x mau give up..malahan kali ni dia betul2 mau propose sya utk jadi gf dia.....huhuhhuhuhuhu....hampir jg iman sya goyah dgn proposal itu tapi nasib baik Roh Kudus masih kuatkan hati dan iman sya....AMEN!!! hmm....dia memg baik, sangat2 baik.....blh dikatakan dia agak memenuhi segala kriteria yg sya mau dlm diri lelaki idaman sya.....sya tau dia blh terima sya seadanya, terima segala kekurangan sya....cuma satu aja yg buat sya x dapat terima dia.....HE IS A MUSLIM....hmm....sya bukan anti-Muslim, tapi sya memg x mau terima kalo dia adalah seorg Muslim....kalo saja dia seorg Kristian, memg confirm sya akan terima dia...maybe sdh sya tukar status ni skrg....hehehe.....sayang betul oo....tapi xpa la....maybe bukan jodoh kami.....kalo bukan dgn dia pun ramai lagi lelaki d dunia ni baa...sya yakin n pasti, Tuhan pasti sdh ciptakan seseorg utk sya....yg sesuai dgn sya, yg boleh terima sya seadanya, n yg paling penting ialah, dia adalah seorg Kristian, seorg pengikut Yesus....(^_^) ya, sya yakin dgn Bapa...!!!
hmm....tapi sebagai kenang2an spya len kali sya blh baca lg, sya post la juga conversation kmi tu...hehheehe :
SPONGY: Tricia, i thought to tell u something but i don't know whether i have the courage.
PAT: Uik???apa itu??hmm this's what make my curiousity trigerred suddenly..hehe
SPONGY: Err err are u sure wanna know abt it?huhu hw shud i put it yeah.....='(
PAT: Ya, i do want...but it's up to u whether u want to tell me or not..i won't force u..it's ur right..=)
SPONGY: Emm....emm...
PAT: Hmm....mesti kamu nak bgtau yg sya comel ni kan tapi kmu malu2 lg....hahahhahaahahahaha....(perasan betol)
SPONGY: Bkn Tricia, tapi yae, kmu memang comel.... (uinaaa kambang trus sya time ni...hehehe)
PAT: Hehe thank u..thank u... tapi...apa yg susah sgt nak bgtau sya tu?curiga betul....
SPONGY: Emm.... Is t rite if i say "I LOVE YOU" ?? And i mean it....
duinaaaa time sya dpt ni msg terus berdegup kencang ni jantung sya....sya betul2 terkejut, mcm kena kejutan electric ni.....huish....bkn x pnah ada org kc luah mcm tu sama sya, tapi...ini mcm betul2 serius baa....kin takut ni...uish....then sya jawab cmni...
PAT: Hehe..knpa tiba2 pla ni? kmu bergurau yea? hehe...
SPONGY: If i said i am serious?
PAT: Hehe jgn ba..kmu ni memg suka kenakan sya...hehe
SPONGY: Haish Tricia nie, hehe lulus ujian..=P
Uik??huh....sya xtau apa maksud 'ujian' yg dia maksudkan itu, sbb sya tnya pun dia xmau jawab...tapi sya x kisah jg, sbb sya happy dia men2 aja....tapi jauh d dalam hati sya kata yg dia memg serius....tapi sya x juga perasan la, sya tau jg sya ni mcm mana...mana ada org sgup suka sya ni..hmm...seterusnya...
PAT: Ujian apa?? oo kmu memg sengaja kenakan sya yea...huhu
SPONGY: Jika sya serius pun, Tricia akan kata sya men2..kn?
PAT: Ya.. sbb sya tau sya mcm mana...i'm not deserved to get the words from a gud guy like u..
ya memg itu la yg sya rasa....sya x layak utk terima ayat itu dr seorg lelaki yg baik dan sempurna seperti dia....hmm...then dia jawab.....
SPONGY: Eh, ke situ pula...u deserve better, Tricia...jgn merendah diri sgt yae...kmu lbh dr apa yg kmu sangkakan....no doubt, that's the truth....
woo....terharu jg la sya bila dia kata mcm tu....tapi sya tetap x dapat terima dia....lpas tu dia propose sya.....sya reject dia dgn cara baik dgn mengatakan " i'm sorry for declining ur proposal to become more than a friend to u, but i just don't want to let anybody hurt, neither me nor u...sya syg kmu, kmu kwn sya....plus, i also love myself...jd sya x nak ada antara kita yg akan terluka nt... Lgpun sya jenis yg tetp, kalo dah mula sesuatu, susah nak akhiri...rasanya kmu jg begitu kan? Sya minta maaf, but there's a boundary between us...except for friendship, it's free from all that.. But, this is different case,,,, Just if u are.........maybe i will accept u..once again, i'm sorry....=(" Wooo panjang lebar ayat sya kalo mau reject org....hehe...sya bkn apa, sbnarnya sya takut dia mrh dgn sya, then bt apa2 yg x bgs....lgpun sya syg persahabatan kmi.....tapi syukurlaa....dia x ambil hati...dia masih blh trma sya sbg kwn dia lg, siap jadikan sya adik angkat lg tu....hehe....sya tau dia kecewa, tapi apa blh buat...sya x sanggup korbankan cinta sya pd Tuhan Yesus semata2 krna cinta dia....sya xmau jadi org kedua yg bt mama n bapa susah hati....hmm....
Masa perkara ini berlaku, sya ada rasa sedikit kecewa jg....sbb sya dapat rasakan hati sya ada perasaan ckit sma dia...tapi x la smpai frust menonggeng....hehehehhe..... tapi apa2pun sya bersyukur jg....sbb cinta Yesus dan bimbingan Roh Kudus mengatasi segala2nya.....sya harap
jika ada lagi 'dugaan' seperti ini terjadi pd sya, Roh Kudus x akan tglkan sya....=)
GOD, thanks for everything.....thanks for the strength u gave to my heart, that i could resist the temptation....i'm very proud to be declared as Your daughter.....i was born belong to You, and hence i will end my life in Your name....ALLAH BAPA, biarlah segalanya berlaku mengikut kehendakmu, bukan kehendakku....AMEN!!!....
hmm....tapi sebagai kenang2an spya len kali sya blh baca lg, sya post la juga conversation kmi tu...hehheehe :
SPONGY: Tricia, i thought to tell u something but i don't know whether i have the courage.
PAT: Uik???apa itu??hmm this's what make my curiousity trigerred suddenly..hehe
SPONGY: Err err are u sure wanna know abt it?huhu hw shud i put it yeah.....='(
PAT: Ya, i do want...but it's up to u whether u want to tell me or not..i won't force u..it's ur right..=)
SPONGY: Emm....emm...
PAT: Hmm....mesti kamu nak bgtau yg sya comel ni kan tapi kmu malu2 lg....hahahhahaahahahaha....(perasan betol)
SPONGY: Bkn Tricia, tapi yae, kmu memang comel.... (uinaaa kambang trus sya time ni...hehehe)
PAT: Hehe thank u..thank u... tapi...apa yg susah sgt nak bgtau sya tu?curiga betul....
SPONGY: Emm.... Is t rite if i say "I LOVE YOU" ?? And i mean it....
duinaaaa time sya dpt ni msg terus berdegup kencang ni jantung sya....sya betul2 terkejut, mcm kena kejutan electric ni.....huish....bkn x pnah ada org kc luah mcm tu sama sya, tapi...ini mcm betul2 serius baa....kin takut ni...uish....then sya jawab cmni...
PAT: Hehe..knpa tiba2 pla ni? kmu bergurau yea? hehe...
SPONGY: If i said i am serious?
PAT: Hehe jgn ba..kmu ni memg suka kenakan sya...hehe
SPONGY: Haish Tricia nie, hehe lulus ujian..=P
Uik??huh....sya xtau apa maksud 'ujian' yg dia maksudkan itu, sbb sya tnya pun dia xmau jawab...tapi sya x kisah jg, sbb sya happy dia men2 aja....tapi jauh d dalam hati sya kata yg dia memg serius....tapi sya x juga perasan la, sya tau jg sya ni mcm mana...mana ada org sgup suka sya ni..hmm...seterusnya...
PAT: Ujian apa?? oo kmu memg sengaja kenakan sya yea...huhu
SPONGY: Jika sya serius pun, Tricia akan kata sya men2..kn?
PAT: Ya.. sbb sya tau sya mcm mana...i'm not deserved to get the words from a gud guy like u..
ya memg itu la yg sya rasa....sya x layak utk terima ayat itu dr seorg lelaki yg baik dan sempurna seperti dia....hmm...then dia jawab.....
SPONGY: Eh, ke situ pula...u deserve better, Tricia...jgn merendah diri sgt yae...kmu lbh dr apa yg kmu sangkakan....no doubt, that's the truth....
woo....terharu jg la sya bila dia kata mcm tu....tapi sya tetap x dapat terima dia....lpas tu dia propose sya.....sya reject dia dgn cara baik dgn mengatakan " i'm sorry for declining ur proposal to become more than a friend to u, but i just don't want to let anybody hurt, neither me nor u...sya syg kmu, kmu kwn sya....plus, i also love myself...jd sya x nak ada antara kita yg akan terluka nt... Lgpun sya jenis yg tetp, kalo dah mula sesuatu, susah nak akhiri...rasanya kmu jg begitu kan? Sya minta maaf, but there's a boundary between us...except for friendship, it's free from all that.. But, this is different case,,,, Just if u are.........maybe i will accept u..once again, i'm sorry....=(" Wooo panjang lebar ayat sya kalo mau reject org....hehe...sya bkn apa, sbnarnya sya takut dia mrh dgn sya, then bt apa2 yg x bgs....lgpun sya syg persahabatan kmi.....tapi syukurlaa....dia x ambil hati...dia masih blh trma sya sbg kwn dia lg, siap jadikan sya adik angkat lg tu....hehe....sya tau dia kecewa, tapi apa blh buat...sya x sanggup korbankan cinta sya pd Tuhan Yesus semata2 krna cinta dia....sya xmau jadi org kedua yg bt mama n bapa susah hati....hmm....
Masa perkara ini berlaku, sya ada rasa sedikit kecewa jg....sbb sya dapat rasakan hati sya ada perasaan ckit sma dia...tapi x la smpai frust menonggeng....hehehehhe..... tapi apa2pun sya bersyukur jg....sbb cinta Yesus dan bimbingan Roh Kudus mengatasi segala2nya.....sya harap
jika ada lagi 'dugaan' seperti ini terjadi pd sya, Roh Kudus x akan tglkan sya....=)
GOD, thanks for everything.....thanks for the strength u gave to my heart, that i could resist the temptation....i'm very proud to be declared as Your daughter.....i was born belong to You, and hence i will end my life in Your name....ALLAH BAPA, biarlah segalanya berlaku mengikut kehendakmu, bukan kehendakku....AMEN!!!....
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
rindu.....
Emmm..lama sdh sya x update blog sya ni....sebulan lebih sdh..huu.....busy baa dgn assignments, tests, quizes yg berlambak2...adoooi....kepenatan kebetulan kesayaan keakhir2an keinian..nt next week ni ada exam lg..huhu....ni pun singgah kijap ja ni, sbb mau share something....x tahan sdh knun...hehehehe.....
Sebenarnya sya rindu betul sma mama sya ba ni.....bukan mama ja, tapi juga bapa, kakak2, abg2 n anak2 buah sya...sya pnya langu2 x berapa kna rindu....hihi tp rindu jg la..haha..tapi yg pling kna rindu tu mama la....hehehe...maybe sbb mau dkat sdh mother's day kan.....hehe...
kemarin petang mama call sya...tiba2 ja ni....dia blg mula2 dia call dg sya tp xdpt....hahaha yala memg pun xdpt sbb hp sya masih ber-off, kna cas ni sbb naawian botiri....trus last2 dia call sya pnya clcm...hihi kesian betul, sdh lah num dia tu dg..mahal moti bila call clcm....ngam2 lg time tu sya tdo, pnat ni study dr pagi smpai petang(haha knunlaa) cpt2 sya sambut sebaik ja nmpk nama "Mamaku Sayang"....mula2 sya srh dia col bilk dg sya sbb sya sdh kc on hp, tp dia blg xdpt jg..ish2 kesian betul....then last2 mama blg "xpala..sama jg ni yg penting dapat dgr suara kau..." emmmm...sob..sob....dui terharu pla sya, x la smpai koturu romou la, sebak aja ckit...hehehe....mama tnya bila sya balik, dia blg rindu betul sdh dia sma sya..huhu kalo dia rindu betul sma sya, sya sangat2 rindu sma dia......huhuhu....dia ckp lg...dia rindu mau bceta sma sya, mau tgk wajah sya yg comel ni (aiseh ni tambah2 ja ni) hahaha...tapi betul la....hihihi...boring sdh dia dua org ja sma bapa d rumah, bergaduh aja dorg mcm budak2 ja, sbb xda sdh kwn lain kan....Tg pla sdh smbung bljr blik....emm....ada lbh kurg 18 hari lg ba sya blaik sabah sdh...tunggu sya aa, ma....hehe...x sabar mau tdo d tilam sya yg empuk tu..hehehhe.....
tapi rindu, rindu juga......exam mesti ditempuhi dlu baru dapt balik sabah..huhu..minggu ni baru study week tp mood study sya pula down....adoi....siodop nopo sya...ish amcm la ni...maan kuoto ti mato ti...ish3...nda buli oo..hehe..jgn Pat....jgn.....tapi apa2 pun sya harap dpt hadapi exam dgn baik n tenang..bukan harap, tapi mesti!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!! chayo2 Pat..good luck..hehe =)
*menyimpang kejap......
hari tu.....30/04/2010.....satu lg perkara masuk dalam "hari ini dalam sejarah hidup Patricia Binti Suidi".....selama setahun 18 hari sya d cni, itulah kali pertama sya keluar berdua dgn lelaki....hehe..sapa lelaki yg bertuah yg dapat keluar dgn pat tu?(aiseh bertuah kunun..hahaha)...dia ialah....P***!!!! hahahaha....lelaki itu....sya masih igt, dia lah lelaki pertama yg bertegur sapa dgn sya pada hari pertama sya sampai cni....yg plg sya igt dia pnah kata sma sya "u have a seducing smile".....waow......hahahahha...tp x sngka skrg dia dah jadi kwn sya pula....tapi kmi keluar bersama bukan p dating, tp sbb dia mnta teman p makan....sya pun xtau napa dia mnta sya sbb setahu sya dia ada rmai lg kawan....ntah la maybe dia segan kot mnta teman dorg..hmm....mula2 memg sya menolak, sbb time tu malam sdh (tp xla lewat sgt)...lgpun sya xda kwn sbb Sin Jie balik rumah...huhu....tapi sya kesian sma dia sbb dia smpai call sya, blg dia lapar betul....jd sya pun terpaksa la kc kwn..hehe..terpaksa tuu....hahahaha...sorry P***, sya terlalu berterus terang.... hmm sbnarnya sya bukan xmau kc kawan dia ba, tapi sya takut,.....takut kana gosip...kot2 ada org nampak kmi jalan berdua ja....lg, takut sya kana 'kacau'..hihi...sya tau sya harus pcaya dia sbb dia kwn sya tapi mcm mana pun dia tetap lelaki, my oppostie gender...so i have to be careful when i'm alone with him.....hmm....n yg terakhir benda yg sya takut ialah......sya takut NANTI DIA JATUH HATI PULA SAMA SYA!!!! hahahahhahahahahahahaha...perasan ba ko ni Pat...muka bagus kalo lawa(tapi comel ada hehee) ada hati pla mau kna suka...isk3.....x sedar dri betul...hehehehe biarla bahhhhh......ala bukan selalu baa..hahaha....=p tapi kan yg lucunya tu, time sya kluar dgn dia sya pkai seluar panjang (sudah semestinya) n baju yg besar...hahahaha memg x menaikkan nafsu langsung la....then hp2 sya pula sya letak dlm beg kecik (khas utk letak hp)..manala tau kan kot2 dtg 'nakal' dia blh la sya pukul kpala dia kuat2 guna tu...hahahaha...pintar kan c Pat????hahaha Pat...Pat...protection betul.....tapi syukur kpd Tuhan, xda jg la benda2 yg x baik berlaku...Dia mkn smbil kmi ceta2 ckit, then kmi smbung ceta d club house, pastu kmi balik.....dia agak gentleman jg (memg gentle pun..hehe) , hntar sya smpai simpang p rumah sya.....bolehlah tu....heehe...tu aja la....
GOD.....i don't know what is that actually You want to show me....but i hope it won't give amy negative effect to my life.....i really hope that You will light up my mind and heart so that i can sit the final exam calmly......i also hope that You will always give my family, my friends n myself a very good health, both in physical n mental conditions....thanks for everything, my Dear GOD.... i love You... AMEN....(^_^)
Sebenarnya sya rindu betul sma mama sya ba ni.....bukan mama ja, tapi juga bapa, kakak2, abg2 n anak2 buah sya...sya pnya langu2 x berapa kna rindu....hihi tp rindu jg la..haha..tapi yg pling kna rindu tu mama la....hehehe...maybe sbb mau dkat sdh mother's day kan.....hehe...
kemarin petang mama call sya...tiba2 ja ni....dia blg mula2 dia call dg sya tp xdpt....hahaha yala memg pun xdpt sbb hp sya masih ber-off, kna cas ni sbb naawian botiri....trus last2 dia call sya pnya clcm...hihi kesian betul, sdh lah num dia tu dg..mahal moti bila call clcm....ngam2 lg time tu sya tdo, pnat ni study dr pagi smpai petang(haha knunlaa) cpt2 sya sambut sebaik ja nmpk nama "Mamaku Sayang"....mula2 sya srh dia col bilk dg sya sbb sya sdh kc on hp, tp dia blg xdpt jg..ish2 kesian betul....then last2 mama blg "xpala..sama jg ni yg penting dapat dgr suara kau..." emmmm...sob..sob....dui terharu pla sya, x la smpai koturu romou la, sebak aja ckit...hehehe....mama tnya bila sya balik, dia blg rindu betul sdh dia sma sya..huhu kalo dia rindu betul sma sya, sya sangat2 rindu sma dia......huhuhu....dia ckp lg...dia rindu mau bceta sma sya, mau tgk wajah sya yg comel ni (aiseh ni tambah2 ja ni) hahaha...tapi betul la....hihihi...boring sdh dia dua org ja sma bapa d rumah, bergaduh aja dorg mcm budak2 ja, sbb xda sdh kwn lain kan....Tg pla sdh smbung bljr blik....emm....ada lbh kurg 18 hari lg ba sya blaik sabah sdh...tunggu sya aa, ma....hehe...x sabar mau tdo d tilam sya yg empuk tu..hehehhe.....
tapi rindu, rindu juga......exam mesti ditempuhi dlu baru dapt balik sabah..huhu..minggu ni baru study week tp mood study sya pula down....adoi....siodop nopo sya...ish amcm la ni...maan kuoto ti mato ti...ish3...nda buli oo..hehe..jgn Pat....jgn.....tapi apa2 pun sya harap dpt hadapi exam dgn baik n tenang..bukan harap, tapi mesti!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!! chayo2 Pat..good luck..hehe =)
*menyimpang kejap......
hari tu.....30/04/2010.....satu lg perkara masuk dalam "hari ini dalam sejarah hidup Patricia Binti Suidi".....selama setahun 18 hari sya d cni, itulah kali pertama sya keluar berdua dgn lelaki....hehe..sapa lelaki yg bertuah yg dapat keluar dgn pat tu?(aiseh bertuah kunun..hahaha)...dia ialah....P***!!!! hahahaha....lelaki itu....sya masih igt, dia lah lelaki pertama yg bertegur sapa dgn sya pada hari pertama sya sampai cni....yg plg sya igt dia pnah kata sma sya "u have a seducing smile".....waow......hahahahha...tp x sngka skrg dia dah jadi kwn sya pula....tapi kmi keluar bersama bukan p dating, tp sbb dia mnta teman p makan....sya pun xtau napa dia mnta sya sbb setahu sya dia ada rmai lg kawan....ntah la maybe dia segan kot mnta teman dorg..hmm....mula2 memg sya menolak, sbb time tu malam sdh (tp xla lewat sgt)...lgpun sya xda kwn sbb Sin Jie balik rumah...huhu....tapi sya kesian sma dia sbb dia smpai call sya, blg dia lapar betul....jd sya pun terpaksa la kc kwn..hehe..terpaksa tuu....hahahaha...sorry P***, sya terlalu berterus terang.... hmm sbnarnya sya bukan xmau kc kawan dia ba, tapi sya takut,.....takut kana gosip...kot2 ada org nampak kmi jalan berdua ja....lg, takut sya kana 'kacau'..hihi...sya tau sya harus pcaya dia sbb dia kwn sya tapi mcm mana pun dia tetap lelaki, my oppostie gender...so i have to be careful when i'm alone with him.....hmm....n yg terakhir benda yg sya takut ialah......sya takut NANTI DIA JATUH HATI PULA SAMA SYA!!!! hahahahhahahahahahahaha...perasan ba ko ni Pat...muka bagus kalo lawa(tapi comel ada hehee) ada hati pla mau kna suka...isk3.....x sedar dri betul...hehehehe biarla bahhhhh......ala bukan selalu baa..hahaha....=p tapi kan yg lucunya tu, time sya kluar dgn dia sya pkai seluar panjang (sudah semestinya) n baju yg besar...hahahaha memg x menaikkan nafsu langsung la....then hp2 sya pula sya letak dlm beg kecik (khas utk letak hp)..manala tau kan kot2 dtg 'nakal' dia blh la sya pukul kpala dia kuat2 guna tu...hahahaha...pintar kan c Pat????hahaha Pat...Pat...protection betul.....tapi syukur kpd Tuhan, xda jg la benda2 yg x baik berlaku...Dia mkn smbil kmi ceta2 ckit, then kmi smbung ceta d club house, pastu kmi balik.....dia agak gentleman jg (memg gentle pun..hehe) , hntar sya smpai simpang p rumah sya.....bolehlah tu....heehe...tu aja la....
GOD.....i don't know what is that actually You want to show me....but i hope it won't give amy negative effect to my life.....i really hope that You will light up my mind and heart so that i can sit the final exam calmly......i also hope that You will always give my family, my friends n myself a very good health, both in physical n mental conditions....thanks for everything, my Dear GOD.... i love You... AMEN....(^_^)
Sunday, March 28, 2010
DINNER...
Beberapa hari ni byk perkara telah sya lalui...one of them ialah perkara baru, yg sya xpernah alami sebelum ni...apa dia???dinner!!!! hahaha....dinner??apa barang ba itu pat..?? dinner la bah yg kena pkai bju cantik2, pakai makeup, dan makan bufet d hotel...hahaha....yeah, itulah perkara baru yg sya lalui semalam....adush!!! first time ni...first time sya pkai baju yg menampakkan bahu(yg sexy tu ba), bercampur dgn rmai org lg tu...first time pkai makeup( haha selalunya pure beauty ba ni wajah ni) n kc curl rambut (yg bukan permanent pnya)..adedeh...punyalah terseksa!! x pernah ba dalam seumur hidup sya pakai pkaian cmni n bersolek spt ni....27.03.2010, masuk hari ini dalam sejarah hidup pat trus..hahaaha....mimang ba picah rekod trus baa....pat yg x pernah pkai makeup, x pernah pkai pkaian sesexy itu(agak sexy la ba tu bg sya) tiba2 pkai pula..hahahatrus mcm bukan sya ba sya tgk wajah sya..macam amoi pulak...hehehe parasantut la ko pat...hehe xpa baa, ini blog syasuka hati la sya mau ckp apa pun....hehehe...lgpun x heran bajd mcm muka amoi...nenek moyang pun bukannya xdadarah cina...hehe nga malamtu baru knun terselah ke-cina-an c Patknun..hahahaha....knun..ekekeke
bah ceta pasal tu dinner, adodoi....punyerlahhhh....adalah ckit2 bikin malu....oya, lupa pla mau ckp, 3 org ja kmi p tu dinner....sya, c girl ngan c cory aja...yg len tu xmau pg...c boy yg knunnya mau pg x knun jadi...ada knun pertandingan rogbi dorg pagi kemarin...emm....bah, back to the story...wainah, walawei!!! terlambat ba knun kmi dtg tu dinner...c Anne lwat ambil kmi dr FM House...dah tu otw pun traffic jammed la pulak....adei.....lpas tu kan bila mau smpai sdh tu hotel c Anne pulak tersilap belok..adei....adooi jauh nogi...adush dgn pkaian yg agak elegant (sya la hehe) n sexy (girl n cory) brabis la knun kmi berlari ni..bwa projector lg tu..haha...malu eh...then, sdh smpai d hotel tu , xtau pula tgkt brapa...jd terpaksa la sya col c Arthur...dia blg tgkt 3...bah kmi pun berlarian terus p dpn lif...huhu nasib baik ada lif yg ada cermin,...huh, sempat lagi kc bgs makeup..hahaahhahaha....smpai tgkt 3 xtau pla mana pintu....col lg c Arthur...dia kluar p ambil kmi..masuklah knun kmi ni p dewan makan tu....adui.....smua org tgk kmi...alamak malu oo.....kami lah yg plg lwat...smua mata tgk arah kmi....dup dap, dup dap....sya dpt rasa smua kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya menumpukan pndgn diorg pd sya.....Then kmi kna bg tmpt d plg blkg...dr jauh sya dpt nmpk dsdh wajah c dean (budak ncom time d matrik dlu)..baaaaaa skali sya kna bg seat sblh dia...wuish...basar mata dia tgk sya.....trus c jude pla bg peace sma sya, sya bls ja....n bila sya tgk c dean, sya kata " hai dean" hehehehe n trus tunduk,....saya malu bama dia...sya malu bkn sbb sya suka tp sbb dia xtau apa yg sdh jadi pd sya..huhu....biarla..tapi tula ba kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya smua tgk sya....esp c Herman...uish dia memg knal sya...dia ada bercakap lg masya....mmm....then time persembahan pula, simple ja persembahan kmi.....kmi nyanyi lgu SHOUT TO THE LORD sja.....nasib baik ok jg la wlaupun last minit preparation....yg lg bikin malu, c Estranza kc umum ba yg sya ni kwn rumate dia, i know who he means....Asyraf....mentang2 la dlu c asyraf pnah col sya timedia ada...adei..biarlaa....then time balik FM House c Arthur yg ntar kmi smpai sna...jam 12.30 lbh sdh lg tu...sya tau dia siodop sdh tu sbb kmi pun siodop dah juga...tapi dia tetap ntar kmi juga....wahhh baiknya dia....wahhh..sya suka lelaki baik!!!!! hahahahahahahah Pat.....jgn gete....!! dia hanya menjalankan tugas sbg gentleman tu....(haha saja knun mau pujuk diri tu) tapi dia memg baiklaa....hehehe...tadi pagi pun dia sgup bgn awal sbb mau kc teman nek bas p church....hehe dia memg baik baaa.....responsible lg tu...hehe...pat..brapa kali sdh ko pui dia ni???ko ni....hahahaha jgn getePat.....tu jala ceta pasal dinner tu...terselit la pula kisah hari ni kit2..hahahha....
ni iklan ja ni...semala, lbh kurg jam1.30 pagi, menatang tu tiba2 sendmsg ma sya n say sorry for everything....apa dia nak sbnrnya?????hmm....biarla dia....tp yg plg bestbilasya ckp dgn dia "sya xmau kacau llki yg sdh berpunya, sya pndg llki single aja" hahahahha..baru dia tau....tu ja laa....
emm..panjang betul ceta sya kali ni.....hehe....emm mau p mandi dlu la ni..nt lg baru sambung...
GOD, thanks for everything......i love You,my God...AMEN!!
bah ceta pasal tu dinner, adodoi....punyerlahhhh....adalah ckit2 bikin malu....oya, lupa pla mau ckp, 3 org ja kmi p tu dinner....sya, c girl ngan c cory aja...yg len tu xmau pg...c boy yg knunnya mau pg x knun jadi...ada knun pertandingan rogbi dorg pagi kemarin...emm....bah, back to the story...wainah, walawei!!! terlambat ba knun kmi dtg tu dinner...c Anne lwat ambil kmi dr FM House...dah tu otw pun traffic jammed la pulak....adei.....lpas tu kan bila mau smpai sdh tu hotel c Anne pulak tersilap belok..adei....adooi jauh nogi...adush dgn pkaian yg agak elegant (sya la hehe) n sexy (girl n cory) brabis la knun kmi berlari ni..bwa projector lg tu..haha...malu eh...then, sdh smpai d hotel tu , xtau pula tgkt brapa...jd terpaksa la sya col c Arthur...dia blg tgkt 3...bah kmi pun berlarian terus p dpn lif...huhu nasib baik ada lif yg ada cermin,...huh, sempat lagi kc bgs makeup..hahaahhahaha....smpai tgkt 3 xtau pla mana pintu....col lg c Arthur...dia kluar p ambil kmi..masuklah knun kmi ni p dewan makan tu....adui.....smua org tgk kmi...alamak malu oo.....kami lah yg plg lwat...smua mata tgk arah kmi....dup dap, dup dap....sya dpt rasa smua kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya menumpukan pndgn diorg pd sya.....Then kmi kna bg tmpt d plg blkg...dr jauh sya dpt nmpk dsdh wajah c dean (budak ncom time d matrik dlu)..baaaaaa skali sya kna bg seat sblh dia...wuish...basar mata dia tgk sya.....trus c jude pla bg peace sma sya, sya bls ja....n bila sya tgk c dean, sya kata " hai dean" hehehehe n trus tunduk,....saya malu bama dia...sya malu bkn sbb sya suka tp sbb dia xtau apa yg sdh jadi pd sya..huhu....biarla..tapi tula ba kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya smua tgk sya....esp c Herman...uish dia memg knal sya...dia ada bercakap lg masya....mmm....then time persembahan pula, simple ja persembahan kmi.....kmi nyanyi lgu SHOUT TO THE LORD sja.....nasib baik ok jg la wlaupun last minit preparation....yg lg bikin malu, c Estranza kc umum ba yg sya ni kwn rumate dia, i know who he means....Asyraf....mentang2 la dlu c asyraf pnah col sya timedia ada...adei..biarlaa....then time balik FM House c Arthur yg ntar kmi smpai sna...jam 12.30 lbh sdh lg tu...sya tau dia siodop sdh tu sbb kmi pun siodop dah juga...tapi dia tetap ntar kmi juga....wahhh baiknya dia....wahhh..sya suka lelaki baik!!!!! hahahahahahahah Pat.....jgn gete....!! dia hanya menjalankan tugas sbg gentleman tu....(haha saja knun mau pujuk diri tu) tapi dia memg baiklaa....hehehe...tadi pagi pun dia sgup bgn awal sbb mau kc teman nek bas p church....hehe dia memg baik baaa.....responsible lg tu...hehe...pat..brapa kali sdh ko pui dia ni???ko ni....hahahaha jgn getePat.....tu jala ceta pasal dinner tu...terselit la pula kisah hari ni kit2..hahahha....
ni iklan ja ni...semala, lbh kurg jam1.30 pagi, menatang tu tiba2 sendmsg ma sya n say sorry for everything....apa dia nak sbnrnya?????hmm....biarla dia....tp yg plg bestbilasya ckp dgn dia "sya xmau kacau llki yg sdh berpunya, sya pndg llki single aja" hahahahha..baru dia tau....tu ja laa....
emm..panjang betul ceta sya kali ni.....hehe....emm mau p mandi dlu la ni..nt lg baru sambung...
GOD, thanks for everything......i love You,my God...AMEN!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
hati oh hati.....
tadi time english class ada debate....ahhh benda yg sya paling x suka!!!!sya bukan x suka apa tapi sya xmau p depan baa...jadi tontonan ramai.....haish.....sdh tu ada lg diorg c @#$% tgk tu...huhu...sdhlah sya memg gementar mau bercakap d depan org ramai....adoii.....jadinya, sya blurr...xtau mau ckp apa....baru sya ckp sikit sdh kna ktwa, pa sya x hilang keyakinan.....huhu....ntah apa sdh jadi sma sya ni....dlu sya x macam ni....huhu....sya agak berkeyakinan jg bila berckp d depan.....ntah napa jd begini sdh sekarang.....huhu...sya betul2 x suka perubahan ini...betul2 negative!!! i hate it!!! tp memg hakikatnya...sya sudah jadi bgni skrg.....huhu....maybe sbb sya tau ada org dlm kelas x suka sya....diorg pasti akan mengumpat sya d belakang kalo sya bercakap d depan.....itu yg terlintas d fikiran sya bila sya p depan....hmmm sya betul2 x blh buang fikiran tu walaupun sya dah berabis buang....adui.....pat...pat....bila lg sya jadi mcm ni sya pun xtau....sakit oo mcm ni....sakit hati...i want myself yg dlu!!!! yg happy go lucky, kuat semangat, berani.....bukan mcm ni!!! hmm......
Hati....oh hati.....kuatkanlah diriku.....sya sdh hampir ke peringkat yg terlemah sdh ni skrg......terlalu byk yg sya simpan dlm hati sya.....kesakitan, kebencian....tapi sya harap sya xkan benci org lg...sya xmau benci org lagi.....sya sdh penat benci org....skrg sya mau syg smua org....x kisahlah smada dia enemy sya ka..kwn sya ka..sya akan syg dia....mybe disebabkan kebencian sya pd geng @#$% itu lah sya kehilangan diri sya yg dlu.....huhu....
God, please 'mould' me just like u.......give me the courage, give me the strength, give me the patience, give me the forgiveness as u have.......God....listen to me....i love You my God....(^_^)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
kawan?(hanya mau meluahkan)
emm macam mana mau mula ni aa...........
kemarin sya bergurau2 dgn kwn baik sya.....satu2nya kwn yg paling rapat dgn sya d cni....mula2 ok sja kmi tp smpai satu tahap tu sya rasa kata2 dia btul2 bt sya tersinggung.....kasar sgt.....sya tahan ja dlu....tp semakin sya biarkan semakin kata2 dia menyinggung sya.....sebenarnya itu bukan pertama kali dia bt macam tu, selalu pun dia bgtu jg tp sya tahan sja....sbb sya tau kdg2 kata2 sya pun bikin panas jg....akhirnya sya memberanikan diri tegur dia....tegur dgn cara baik la...sya ckp " xxx, sya mcm ada terasa ckit dgn kata2 ko td....mcm kasar betul....sorry la kalo sya ckp bgni ko terasa tp sya betul2 x tahan...". then dia jwb sma sya " yg mana satu?" dgn nada yg agak kasar lagi tu.....tmbh sya tersinggung tp sya diam ja.....sya blg "sya x igt sbb sya xmau igt"...yala ba memg sya xmau igt benda yg bt sya skt hati....then dia ckp " ko x suka kata2 sya ka, atau reaksi sya ka atau nada sya?" eee dia tnya lg......sya mau jwb 3-3 tp sya x snggup....jd sya ckp "nada n reaksi ko..." walaupun sbnrnya bg sya ketiga2 benda yg dia sebut tu , itulah jwpnnya.....tapi dia mcm xmau terima teguran sya.....dia blg "sya nak memberontak" haik?memberontak? then dia kata dia xmau lg jadi 'anjing' sya....oh my God....sya betul2 terkejut time dia sebut perkataaan tu......then sya tnya lg dia apa yg bt dia fikir mcm tu...dia kata dulu dia ikut ja sya...apa2pun dia akan dahulukan sya dlu....ambil makanan....masuk kelas....n lg dia akan berjalan di belakang sya.....dia blg dia sengaja bt mcm tu...adui.....sya sngt2 terkejut..sya x pernah menyangka dia sengaja bt mcm tu selama ni.....sya igt itu perkara besa....yala kmi kawan kan.....lagi dia kata "sya betul2 terasa bila org pgl sya 'kwn pat' atau 'geng pat', sya mau jd diri sya sendiri" adui......sya pun x juga suka dgr ba bila org pgl dia mcm tu tp apa sya blh bt?org yg mau pgl dia bgtu bkn sya suruh org pgl dia bgtu......terus sya rasa lain2 ni bila dia bgtau sya.....mungkinkah.....dia jeles sama sya???? adui tp mustahil baa......sapa jg sya ni mau kna jeles.....sya ni sudahlah perangai pun nakal....byk kekurangan lg tu.....tp dr apa yg dia ckp tu bt sya terfikir bgtu baa.....yg paling buat sya tersa smpai x dpt tdo tu bila dia ckp dia tu mcm 'anjing' sya...dia tu mcm pengikut sya....hmm.....sya xtau apa yg buat dia fikir begitu....pdhal sya x pernah pun anggap n layan dia seteruk itu.....sya syg dia baa......dia sja kwn yg sya rapat d cni..............tp knapa jd bgni???
sya selalu jaga perasaan dia....apa2pun sya ckp sya consider dlu perasaan dia....tapi dia selalu berckp tnpa hiraukan apa yg sya rasa....benda yg sya suka dia blg buruk....bila sya bercakap baik2 dgn dia, dia ckp kasar pula....sakit hati sya......sya sdh lama pendam....tp makin lama sya pendam makin seksa sya rasa....so i decided to reveal it all here....by now.....it's really suffering....it's really painful, deep inside my heart......x sangka betul sya kwn baik sya sendiri berfikir mcm tu tentang sya........
betul kah kmi ni kwn baik?betul kah dia kwn baik yg Tuhan ciptakan utk menemani sya d cni, d tempat org ni? hmm sya pun xtau lg pa mau ckp.....tp kalo memg dia x suka gaya sya, she can go whenever she want baa.....dia dlu yg nak kawan dgn sya, jd biarlah dia pergi sendri.....sya x kan menghalang, sma mcm khidupan dia, sya x pernah masuk campur.....it's up to her.....it's her decision....it's totally hers.....
kenapalah setiap kali sya berkwn baik dgn kwn ppuan benda spt ni selalu terjadi?dr dlu lg mcm ni.....sya selalu makan hati bila sama2 diorg......pendam perasaan........sakit hati tp x dpt bgtau....terasa tp buat2 biasa....punyalah terseksa....inilah sebabnya sya lebih suka berkwn dgn kwn llki....kalo x pun sya lbh suka sendri2..lg bagus kalo mcm tu...xda hati yg perlu dijaga...hati sya pun x terluka.....tp knapa jg sya ter-berkwn jg dgn kwn ppuan????sesuatu yg sya selalu elakkan dr dlu, d cni sya dpt lg kwn ppuan......hmmm.......memg kalo ppuan kwn dgn ppuan akan ada perasaan 'x puas hati' itu ka??sya igtkan dia x mcm kwn ppuan yg lain, rupanya sama sja....meng ada ckit perbezaan la tp pemikiran diorg sma sja.....hmmm.....
indirectly sya terigt bestfrens sya....hafiz....ralph n arnold n mawi.....selama sya berkawan rapat dgn diorg sya x pernah rasa bgni....x pernah sya rasa terseksa bgni......hmm.....kwn2....hafiz, ralph, arnold, mawi.....sya rindu kmu....sya rindu mau bergurau sma2 kmu.....sya rindu..................kmulah bestfriends yg sgt memahami sya.....sya gila, kamu tau sya x gila...sya gete, hehe kmu tau sya main2 aja menggete......sya mkn byk, kmu tau sya memg kuat makan....sya nakal, kmu tau sya memg nakal......hmmm......
xpala....mungkin apa yg terjadi ni ada hikmahnya.....sya terima aja....biarlaa.....apa yg penting sya tau, Tuhan sentiasa bersama2 sya sbg teman karib yg x pernah meninggalkan sya......yg selalu sygkan sya......
TUHAN......sya mohon agar Kau perbaiki lah hubungan sya dgn kwn sya.....semoga hugungan kmi akan kembali spt dlu....buangkan lah rasa tersinggung sya pd dia......correct me when i'm wrong......strengthen me when i'm going to weak.....i beg You, my God.....thanks for everything...AMEN....
kemarin sya bergurau2 dgn kwn baik sya.....satu2nya kwn yg paling rapat dgn sya d cni....mula2 ok sja kmi tp smpai satu tahap tu sya rasa kata2 dia btul2 bt sya tersinggung.....kasar sgt.....sya tahan ja dlu....tp semakin sya biarkan semakin kata2 dia menyinggung sya.....sebenarnya itu bukan pertama kali dia bt macam tu, selalu pun dia bgtu jg tp sya tahan sja....sbb sya tau kdg2 kata2 sya pun bikin panas jg....akhirnya sya memberanikan diri tegur dia....tegur dgn cara baik la...sya ckp " xxx, sya mcm ada terasa ckit dgn kata2 ko td....mcm kasar betul....sorry la kalo sya ckp bgni ko terasa tp sya betul2 x tahan...". then dia jwb sma sya " yg mana satu?" dgn nada yg agak kasar lagi tu.....tmbh sya tersinggung tp sya diam ja.....sya blg "sya x igt sbb sya xmau igt"...yala ba memg sya xmau igt benda yg bt sya skt hati....then dia ckp " ko x suka kata2 sya ka, atau reaksi sya ka atau nada sya?" eee dia tnya lg......sya mau jwb 3-3 tp sya x snggup....jd sya ckp "nada n reaksi ko..." walaupun sbnrnya bg sya ketiga2 benda yg dia sebut tu , itulah jwpnnya.....tapi dia mcm xmau terima teguran sya.....dia blg "sya nak memberontak" haik?memberontak? then dia kata dia xmau lg jadi 'anjing' sya....oh my God....sya betul2 terkejut time dia sebut perkataaan tu......then sya tnya lg dia apa yg bt dia fikir mcm tu...dia kata dulu dia ikut ja sya...apa2pun dia akan dahulukan sya dlu....ambil makanan....masuk kelas....n lg dia akan berjalan di belakang sya.....dia blg dia sengaja bt mcm tu...adui.....sya sngt2 terkejut..sya x pernah menyangka dia sengaja bt mcm tu selama ni.....sya igt itu perkara besa....yala kmi kawan kan.....lagi dia kata "sya betul2 terasa bila org pgl sya 'kwn pat' atau 'geng pat', sya mau jd diri sya sendiri" adui......sya pun x juga suka dgr ba bila org pgl dia mcm tu tp apa sya blh bt?org yg mau pgl dia bgtu bkn sya suruh org pgl dia bgtu......terus sya rasa lain2 ni bila dia bgtau sya.....mungkinkah.....dia jeles sama sya???? adui tp mustahil baa......sapa jg sya ni mau kna jeles.....sya ni sudahlah perangai pun nakal....byk kekurangan lg tu.....tp dr apa yg dia ckp tu bt sya terfikir bgtu baa.....yg paling buat sya tersa smpai x dpt tdo tu bila dia ckp dia tu mcm 'anjing' sya...dia tu mcm pengikut sya....hmm.....sya xtau apa yg buat dia fikir begitu....pdhal sya x pernah pun anggap n layan dia seteruk itu.....sya syg dia baa......dia sja kwn yg sya rapat d cni..............tp knapa jd bgni???
sya selalu jaga perasaan dia....apa2pun sya ckp sya consider dlu perasaan dia....tapi dia selalu berckp tnpa hiraukan apa yg sya rasa....benda yg sya suka dia blg buruk....bila sya bercakap baik2 dgn dia, dia ckp kasar pula....sakit hati sya......sya sdh lama pendam....tp makin lama sya pendam makin seksa sya rasa....so i decided to reveal it all here....by now.....it's really suffering....it's really painful, deep inside my heart......x sangka betul sya kwn baik sya sendiri berfikir mcm tu tentang sya........
betul kah kmi ni kwn baik?betul kah dia kwn baik yg Tuhan ciptakan utk menemani sya d cni, d tempat org ni? hmm sya pun xtau lg pa mau ckp.....tp kalo memg dia x suka gaya sya, she can go whenever she want baa.....dia dlu yg nak kawan dgn sya, jd biarlah dia pergi sendri.....sya x kan menghalang, sma mcm khidupan dia, sya x pernah masuk campur.....it's up to her.....it's her decision....it's totally hers.....
kenapalah setiap kali sya berkwn baik dgn kwn ppuan benda spt ni selalu terjadi?dr dlu lg mcm ni.....sya selalu makan hati bila sama2 diorg......pendam perasaan........sakit hati tp x dpt bgtau....terasa tp buat2 biasa....punyalah terseksa....inilah sebabnya sya lebih suka berkwn dgn kwn llki....kalo x pun sya lbh suka sendri2..lg bagus kalo mcm tu...xda hati yg perlu dijaga...hati sya pun x terluka.....tp knapa jg sya ter-berkwn jg dgn kwn ppuan????sesuatu yg sya selalu elakkan dr dlu, d cni sya dpt lg kwn ppuan......hmmm.......memg kalo ppuan kwn dgn ppuan akan ada perasaan 'x puas hati' itu ka??sya igtkan dia x mcm kwn ppuan yg lain, rupanya sama sja....meng ada ckit perbezaan la tp pemikiran diorg sma sja.....hmmm.....
indirectly sya terigt bestfrens sya....hafiz....ralph n arnold n mawi.....selama sya berkawan rapat dgn diorg sya x pernah rasa bgni....x pernah sya rasa terseksa bgni......hmm.....kwn2....hafiz, ralph, arnold, mawi.....sya rindu kmu....sya rindu mau bergurau sma2 kmu.....sya rindu..................kmulah bestfriends yg sgt memahami sya.....sya gila, kamu tau sya x gila...sya gete, hehe kmu tau sya main2 aja menggete......sya mkn byk, kmu tau sya memg kuat makan....sya nakal, kmu tau sya memg nakal......hmmm......
xpala....mungkin apa yg terjadi ni ada hikmahnya.....sya terima aja....biarlaa.....apa yg penting sya tau, Tuhan sentiasa bersama2 sya sbg teman karib yg x pernah meninggalkan sya......yg selalu sygkan sya......
TUHAN......sya mohon agar Kau perbaiki lah hubungan sya dgn kwn sya.....semoga hugungan kmi akan kembali spt dlu....buangkan lah rasa tersinggung sya pd dia......correct me when i'm wrong......strengthen me when i'm going to weak.....i beg You, my God.....thanks for everything...AMEN....
Monday, March 8, 2010
emm....
hari ni mcm bad day sja oo... tadi pagi sya lewat bangun, jam6.45 sdh...adei..time tu sakit2 lg kpala sya...macam xmau bangun lg....tapi sya terpaksa jg bangun sbb sdh janji dgn sin jie mau jalan awal p kolej, jam7......dui ada 15 minit lagi....sya pun pa lagi turun trus dari katil dgn pantasnya (nasib baik x jatuh sbb katil d tgkt atas) n ambil tuala n gonob p bathroom....hehehe....ambil maa lebih kurg 10minit jg la sya mandi...lpas tu sya cepat2 pakai baju apa smua tu sbb tgl 5minit lg jam7 sdh...hehehe terambil pla da bju yg kecik n agak pendek drpd selalu....nasib la x sexy..hahaha...nmpk comel pla sya tgk sya pkai tu baju..hahaaahhaah parasan la ko ni pat....tp betul la ba sya nmpk tgi pkai tu bju walaupun the truth is sya ni x la tgi sgt..150cm aja....hehehehe.....haha...sya nda dpt tahan ktawa bila pikir sya ckp gtu ttg diri sendri..punya la minta puji..hehe..baa kluar tajuk sdh ni....
smpai dah kolej dii knun.....hehe...masuk lab pharmaceutics....xda experiment..alah.....mr. sami mau check report book aja....lpas tu dia check punya check tiba2 dia pndai tnya soalan....adush...berabis sya berdoa agar dia x tnya sya lebih2...tapi malangnya....bila smpai giliran sya dia tnya pula ttg "what is the function of dosage form?" toing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! question ini lagi!!!! sya x igt......time cuti tu sya lgsung xda sentuh nota....adei.....malunya sya dpt jwb 2 function aja....huhu.....then dia suruh p refer blik....time tu diorg ananthi n duha dpn sya lg tu....sambil senyum2 diorg tgk sya..mengejek la itu....xpa la....2nd time, sya dpt jg la jawab tp memng sgt2 blur....huhu tu la gia ko pat...x study..kalo cuti, cuti betul2..hmm....biarla len kli xmau bt lg...jara sdh....
tapi sya heran o dgn geng indian dlm kelas sya....diorg mcm x suka sya...terlalu berlagak ka sya ni?minta puji betul ka sya ni? bikin panas sgt ka sya ni?tapi sya x pernah ba kacau diorg....bercakap pun jarang sngt....apa lg bergurau senda....hmmm tp biarla diorg....mybe sya ada bt diorg sakit hati kot tnpa sya sedari....emm.....tapi diorg betul2 bt sya xsuka masuk kelas....sya diam2 tapi dibenci....apa salah sya??biarlaa.....sya tetap sya..inilah sya....pat yg nakal n comel..ahahhahaa pat..pat..ko ni aa....hee
GOD.....strengthen me..don't let me fall just because of the' small thing'......
I LOVE U MY GOD....AMEN...(^_^)
smpai dah kolej dii knun.....hehe...masuk lab pharmaceutics....xda experiment..alah.....mr. sami mau check report book aja....lpas tu dia check punya check tiba2 dia pndai tnya soalan....adush...berabis sya berdoa agar dia x tnya sya lebih2...tapi malangnya....bila smpai giliran sya dia tnya pula ttg "what is the function of dosage form?" toing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! question ini lagi!!!! sya x igt......time cuti tu sya lgsung xda sentuh nota....adei.....malunya sya dpt jwb 2 function aja....huhu.....then dia suruh p refer blik....time tu diorg ananthi n duha dpn sya lg tu....sambil senyum2 diorg tgk sya..mengejek la itu....xpa la....2nd time, sya dpt jg la jawab tp memng sgt2 blur....huhu tu la gia ko pat...x study..kalo cuti, cuti betul2..hmm....biarla len kli xmau bt lg...jara sdh....
tapi sya heran o dgn geng indian dlm kelas sya....diorg mcm x suka sya...terlalu berlagak ka sya ni?minta puji betul ka sya ni? bikin panas sgt ka sya ni?tapi sya x pernah ba kacau diorg....bercakap pun jarang sngt....apa lg bergurau senda....hmmm tp biarla diorg....mybe sya ada bt diorg sakit hati kot tnpa sya sedari....emm.....tapi diorg betul2 bt sya xsuka masuk kelas....sya diam2 tapi dibenci....apa salah sya??biarlaa.....sya tetap sya..inilah sya....pat yg nakal n comel..ahahhahaa pat..pat..ko ni aa....hee
GOD.....strengthen me..don't let me fall just because of the' small thing'......
I LOVE U MY GOD....AMEN...(^_^)
Sunday, March 7, 2010
TAKAZUT!!!!
nah..smpai sdh sy d penang..akhirnya..dengan selamat lg tu..hehe..starring jg baa pat ni...hehe..
baa sya cerita dlu time sya d bas....
mula2 tu xda org ddk sblh sya....tp bila tu bas berhenti d kamunting sdh, tiba2 ada someone ddk sna..sya x sdar sbb time tu sy tdo..tdo mati lg tu..haha byr balik yg smlm sya tdo lewat gia kan....sya tersedar pun yg d stesen minyak sdh sbb tu bas berhenti lg..ngam2 time tu sya sisobu sdh btul jd sya bgn laa..uik????takazut sya ada urg pula d sblh sya..adei...trus sya pgang mulut sya mana tau time tdo tu koroloi....hahahaha..huh nasib po tidak..hahha...sya mimang tdo bersih baa...hehe..lpas tu kan time sya mau kluar sya terpijak lg kaki dia..alaaamak!!!eheeeee......sory3!! sya bilang ma dia..dia senyum sja, huh nsb dia x maki2 sya...emm....budak comel gia kan sepa brani maki..hehehehe..perasan la ko pat..haha....lpas sdh siap PU sya p ddk blik....tertdo lg....syoknya....smpai penang sya tertdo.....then tu bas berhenti lg....uik?????d mana ni????sya bckp dlm hati..x pernah nmpk gia tu tmpat....trus dgn pantas sya p tnya tu driver.. "pak cik d mana ni???" "penang" dia blg....uik????adei..sya slh nek bas ka?? then sya tnya lg " X SNGGAH BUTTERWORTH LG KA?" "singgah, lpas ni.." dia blg tu pak cik...syukur...sya igt sya tslh nek bas..hahahahahha ada lg tu org kc ktawa sya....silaka.....hee tp biarla dia....x penting..hahaha...smpai butterworth sya col mr. raja, kereta sewa yg salu sya nek bila balik PV....adoi dia ada penumpang pla time tu....jd mau xmau sya terpaksa la nek teksi....rm30 melayang....huhu....tp xpala yg penting balik PV dgn selamat.....takut2 jg sya time tu sbb first time kan nek teksi, lgpun ppuan lg sya ni....sya berdoa dlu sblm tu teksi jalan..syukur Tuhan sya smpai jg d PV dgn selamat..hehehe....
lpas smpai PV sya makan..lapar gilakkkkk.....adoiiii.....masak migi ja sya, cept dan jimat....hehe.....huh, knyang jg la ckit2....soropo....x po mati kebulur....hehe....pastu sya ceta2 la dgn c girl....pasal fellowship yg ari5 tu...dui naaaa, walawei...sesuatu yg sangat2 buat kotigog my heart.....DORG KC JADI SYA KETUA FELLOWSHIP@TEAM LEADER.....uinaaaaaaaa!!!!!!sungguh ku x sangka....diorg buat keputusan tnpa tnya sya...adei.....sya tnya c girl sepa yg kc calon, dia blg c boy!!!! adoi boy....boy....why u do this to me????ish sya mau dia ba yg jd ketua tu okon2 nogi sya yg jd.....alasan dia knun satu tahun lg diorg sni..ehmmmmm yala tu...tp xpa la....maybe Tuhan mau sya 'bertugas' n 'berkhidmat' utk Dia dgn cara ini.....sya terima sja dgn hati terbuka....n guess what??sonia jadi ajk transport...hahhaha....nah sonia baru ko tau.....hehehe.....tp ok jg ba itu.... emmm....tp....bilang c girl tadi maybe ada perbincangan lg....jd blum confirm lg la itu.....hehe....tp apa2pun yg akan terjadi sya berserah pd Dia....sya percaya Dia pasti sdh rancangkan sesuatu yg indah utk kmi....sya percaya itu...dan sya harap smoga team kmi ini akan buat kmi lebih rapat lg....hehehe....cuma....nt kalo ada perjumpaan PCC sya terpaksa jumpa kwn2 dr matrik dlu....huuu....segannya....xpala...kuatkan semangat aja la pat......=)
itu aja la....mau bt revision dlu, bisuk ada 2 test..chemistry n basic pharmacology.....good luck pat...hehehe
GOD..THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.......I LOVE YOU.....AMEN.....(^_^)
baa sya cerita dlu time sya d bas....
mula2 tu xda org ddk sblh sya....tp bila tu bas berhenti d kamunting sdh, tiba2 ada someone ddk sna..sya x sdar sbb time tu sy tdo..tdo mati lg tu..haha byr balik yg smlm sya tdo lewat gia kan....sya tersedar pun yg d stesen minyak sdh sbb tu bas berhenti lg..ngam2 time tu sya sisobu sdh btul jd sya bgn laa..uik????takazut sya ada urg pula d sblh sya..adei...trus sya pgang mulut sya mana tau time tdo tu koroloi....hahahaha..huh nasib po tidak..hahha...sya mimang tdo bersih baa...hehe..lpas tu kan time sya mau kluar sya terpijak lg kaki dia..alaaamak!!!eheeeee......sory3!! sya bilang ma dia..dia senyum sja, huh nsb dia x maki2 sya...emm....budak comel gia kan sepa brani maki..hehehehe..perasan la ko pat..haha....lpas sdh siap PU sya p ddk blik....tertdo lg....syoknya....smpai penang sya tertdo.....then tu bas berhenti lg....uik?????d mana ni????sya bckp dlm hati..x pernah nmpk gia tu tmpat....trus dgn pantas sya p tnya tu driver.. "pak cik d mana ni???" "penang" dia blg....uik????adei..sya slh nek bas ka?? then sya tnya lg " X SNGGAH BUTTERWORTH LG KA?" "singgah, lpas ni.." dia blg tu pak cik...syukur...sya igt sya tslh nek bas..hahahahahha ada lg tu org kc ktawa sya....silaka.....hee tp biarla dia....x penting..hahaha...smpai butterworth sya col mr. raja, kereta sewa yg salu sya nek bila balik PV....adoi dia ada penumpang pla time tu....jd mau xmau sya terpaksa la nek teksi....rm30 melayang....huhu....tp xpala yg penting balik PV dgn selamat.....takut2 jg sya time tu sbb first time kan nek teksi, lgpun ppuan lg sya ni....sya berdoa dlu sblm tu teksi jalan..syukur Tuhan sya smpai jg d PV dgn selamat..hehehe....
lpas smpai PV sya makan..lapar gilakkkkk.....adoiiii.....masak migi ja sya, cept dan jimat....hehe.....huh, knyang jg la ckit2....soropo....x po mati kebulur....hehe....pastu sya ceta2 la dgn c girl....pasal fellowship yg ari5 tu...dui naaaa, walawei...sesuatu yg sangat2 buat kotigog my heart.....DORG KC JADI SYA KETUA FELLOWSHIP@TEAM LEADER.....uinaaaaaaaa!!!!!!sungguh ku x sangka....diorg buat keputusan tnpa tnya sya...adei.....sya tnya c girl sepa yg kc calon, dia blg c boy!!!! adoi boy....boy....why u do this to me????ish sya mau dia ba yg jd ketua tu okon2 nogi sya yg jd.....alasan dia knun satu tahun lg diorg sni..ehmmmmm yala tu...tp xpa la....maybe Tuhan mau sya 'bertugas' n 'berkhidmat' utk Dia dgn cara ini.....sya terima sja dgn hati terbuka....n guess what??sonia jadi ajk transport...hahhaha....nah sonia baru ko tau.....hehehe.....tp ok jg ba itu.... emmm....tp....bilang c girl tadi maybe ada perbincangan lg....jd blum confirm lg la itu.....hehe....tp apa2pun yg akan terjadi sya berserah pd Dia....sya percaya Dia pasti sdh rancangkan sesuatu yg indah utk kmi....sya percaya itu...dan sya harap smoga team kmi ini akan buat kmi lebih rapat lg....hehehe....cuma....nt kalo ada perjumpaan PCC sya terpaksa jumpa kwn2 dr matrik dlu....huuu....segannya....xpala...kuatkan semangat aja la pat......=)
itu aja la....mau bt revision dlu, bisuk ada 2 test..chemistry n basic pharmacology.....good luck pat...hehehe
GOD..THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.......I LOVE YOU.....AMEN.....(^_^)
Saturday, March 6, 2010
last day....
nah limpas sdh jam12 tgh malam.....ari ni last day sdh sya d kL ni...bermakna ni ni la last day sya dpt menemani kacie......hmm....rasa keberatan pula mau balik penang ni bsok pagi.....huhu kesian kacie lpas ni xda sdh yg tlg dia masak d rumah.....terpaksa lah dia masak sendri itu dii....sianan oku no dau ooi.....nga poingkuro po gia....sya mesti jg balik bisuk sbb cuti sya sdh habis.....terpaksa la....huhu....xpala....ada jg tg d cni tu....ada abcie lg jaga kacie....sya sure, confirm yg diorg pasti dapat jaga kacie baik2 tu....yaa....yakin sja ba pat.....
sbnarnya sya blum ngantuk lg ba ini tapi sya mesti tdo jg sbb sya kna bgn aokwal besok....mau balik penang sdh kan..mau naik bas.......hehe....saturang lg tu..dui pat....starring kopio ko koie...hehe besa sdh baa berkali2 sdh sya naik bas paergi balik kL ni.....hehehe...tambirang la ko pat.....hehe....emmm mau tdo dlu la ni.....good night pat....sweet dreams.....(hehe ucap pd diri sendri pla)....semoga termimpi lelaki ncem....wakakaka.....tata...(adooi mau tdo dah pun sempat lg tu fikiran menggatal hehe).....(^_^)
GOD......AKU MOHON PADAMU AGAR AKU AKU AKAN SELAMAT SAMPAI D PENANG BESOK.....LINDUNGILAH AKU DR SEGALA BAHAYA.......BEGITU JG UTK FAMILYKU.....MAY YOU BLESS THEM ALL....AND ALSO MY FRIENDS......AMEN.....GOOD NIGHT MY GOD......(^_^)
sbnarnya sya blum ngantuk lg ba ini tapi sya mesti tdo jg sbb sya kna bgn aokwal besok....mau balik penang sdh kan..mau naik bas.......hehe....saturang lg tu..dui pat....starring kopio ko koie...hehe besa sdh baa berkali2 sdh sya naik bas paergi balik kL ni.....hehehe...tambirang la ko pat.....hehe....emmm mau tdo dlu la ni.....good night pat....sweet dreams.....(hehe ucap pd diri sendri pla)....semoga termimpi lelaki ncem....wakakaka.....tata...(adooi mau tdo dah pun sempat lg tu fikiran menggatal hehe).....(^_^)
GOD......AKU MOHON PADAMU AGAR AKU AKU AKAN SELAMAT SAMPAI D PENANG BESOK.....LINDUNGILAH AKU DR SEGALA BAHAYA.......BEGITU JG UTK FAMILYKU.....MAY YOU BLESS THEM ALL....AND ALSO MY FRIENDS......AMEN.....GOOD NIGHT MY GOD......(^_^)
Friday, March 5, 2010
sedih sangat......
"tok!tok!tok!" ada bunyi orang ketuk pintu..sya sdg mandi...c kat yg p buka pintu....sya tau sdh mesti diorg kacie yg balik ni dr klinik.....tp sya dgr betul2 ada 2 suara sja.....suara abcie ngan tg aja....aik?mana kacie????sya x sabar2 sdh mau siap mandi ni, mau tau apa yg terjadi sbnrnya...jantung sya berdegup kencang, seolah2 ada sumting yg x baik terjadi....hati sya x henti2 kat "jgn lah ada apa2 yg x baik jd sma kacie"...a few minutes after that sya kluar dr bilik mandi...tgk abcie, wajah dia lunggui sdh...."alah mesti ada something bad jd ni" hati sya berkata lg......tambah motod-kotod ginawoku...mau tanya takut pla so sya tgk tg....nasib baik mata dia ngam2 tgk sya.....sya baca movement bibir dia, ckp dgn sya tnpa suara mcm dia blg "gugur"....astagaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! jgn baaa.....time tu sya rasa mcm tuala sya mau terjatuh sdh.....sya betul2 terkejut.....GOD, why this happen?????kesian kacie....baru aja dia mengandung....tp mcm ini pula jadi nya....sya betul2 sedih....this is her first son/daugther....baru 2 bln baa...angan2 sya utk pegang perut kacie yg besar xda sdh......kesian kacie, kesian abcie......sya x sanggup tgk diorg.....sya mau nangis.....sya sayang kacie....sya xmau tgk dia sedih.....Tuhan dengar doa sya semalam saja, pagi ni x sdh.....tp sya x salah kan Dia.....He must had tried His best to help, to protect kacie's child...tp apa blh buat......
selagi sya masih d sini sya mesti tenangkan kacie.....i'll never leave her....tgl 2 hari lg sya sini..hari ahad balik penang sdh....dalam tempoh tu kalo boleh sya xkan tglkan dia....nasib baik ada sdh tg d sini.....sekurang2nya ada jg family dia di sini other than her husband slpas sya balik penang nt.... kacie......my dear sis.......kuatkan semangat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sya sayang kacie...........sangat sayang....
GOD, I BEG U WITH ALL MY HEART.....GIVE YOUR BLESSING ON KACIE'S LIFE....GIVE HER THE STRENGTH BY THIS TIME.....SHE REALLY NEED YOU......PLEASE WIPE HER TEARS, GIVE HER JOYFUL INSTEAD OF SADNESS......GOD...LISTEN TO ME.....AMEN....
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
takut....
kemarin abcie baca ni blog sya....adidi....dui malu oo....segan pun ada jg....yala sbb sya men ckp aja kan...huhu tp biarla....memang blog ni tmpat sya meluahkan segala2nya..alah lgpun bukan sya mengumpat pun....tp tetap jg sya ada rasa bersalah jg laa....huhu....sorry abcie....hurmmm nsb baik la abg ipar sya tu sporting...cuma dia ada kc ktwa sya ckit laa..huhu....tp apa2 pun sya harap dia x ambil hati dgn pa yg sya tls......tp sya masih takut jg oo....emm.....tp biarlaa....sdh sya bt, tanggung aja laa.....relax laa pat.....hee.....family xkan marah lama2...... sya bersyukur jg sbb kacie dapat abcie ni....walaupun kmi berlainan agama tapi dia tetap layan kmi mcm adik2 kandung dia.....syukur btul....dlu sya takut jg kalo dia ni jenis yg sumbung, tp syukur betul2 pa yg sya fikir tu salah.....hehe.....memang baa Tuhan sentiasa dgr setiap doa2 sya....skrg sya happy betul2 sbb family kmi sdh semakin berkembang....haha nt bulan 10 dpt anak buah baru lg....bertambah lg org pgl sya anty....yeah2.....hehehe x sabar mau tgk perut kacie besar...sya mau pigang....heheh.....baa pat jgn lg takut.....xda jg tu....hehe
GOD, thanks for everything....AMEN....
GOD, thanks for everything....AMEN....
macam2.....
hari ni masuk hari ke-6 sdh sya d cheras....bercuti tmpat kacie...tapi blum lagi sya dapat jalan2 sbb kacie ngan abcie keja aja...huhu tp xpa la sya tgl d rumah sja la...online nopo keja sya ni....tgk utube aja...men facebook pun boring nda sdh best kopio d lama2 yo...huhu....nasib po la ada utube, buli jg sya berabis tgk, dgr n download lagu rohani...hehe...study? oho..belum lagi sya sentuh2 notes pharmacology n chemistry sya aa.....dui gia pat..pa masham la ko ini...emm xpa baa..ada 4 hari lg baa....kui3....tambirang nokopio c pat be...heee tp tgk aja, bingung2 tu nt test ari satu....alamak..kada gia ei..palis2..huhu.....aish yakin aja ba pat....kalo ko ada study (nt2 maa hehe) ko mesti dpat jwb juga tu....jgn risau...hehe mcm itu saja la utk kc senang2 hati...hmm....
sya dgr2 lagu rohani ni.....sya teringt tu note yg c girl kc tag sya...pasal fellowship....diorg mau bt fellowship nt hari jumaat ni....5hb march.....tapi time tu sya blum balik penang lg....huhu sedih betul sya oo diorg bt time sya xda....ada ckit sya rasa terkilan...sampai hati diorg bt time tu....sya x dpt dii join...huhu sdh lah sya sdh lama merindukan suasana spt itu.....menyanyi n ketawa ramai2 dgn kwn2 yg seiman..hmmmm sakiiiiiiiiiiiit hatiiiiiiiiii oo.......tp biarlaa....nt2 ada jg ba pluang tu.....sabar ja la pat......tapi memang sya geram oo....terkilan lg....kami sama2 p church selalu....tgk2 diorg bt fellowship yg diorg2 sja.....sedihhh btul bila terfikir.....sya tau jg ba sya bukanlah org terpenting tapi...............eeeeeeeeee sya mau join baaaaaa..........hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......................sya mau juga!!! huhuhu...mcm sya mau nangis aja teringat oo....tp biarla....biarlaaaaaa.......ish.....susah mau kc hilang tu perasaan terkilan baa.....sya selalu request bas utk p church stiap minggu, sya x pernah pun lupa diorg....bilang 'ging church', tapi diorg......hmmm....biarla tu.....tahan ja la pat.....biarla...biarlaaa......=.=
enough about the fellowship!!!! sya xmau lg fikir2 pasal tu dlu....nt nda pasal2 hancur ni laptop sya gigit nt..hahahaahaha.....mana tau gia marah2 lpas tu jd incredible hulk....hehehe bahaya itu tau.....bogel tarus.....ada yg 'utntung' nt dpt tgk show free....huahahahahahaahha.....adedei....noulo ko no ti pat..hehehe.....ni la sya ni..bila geram aja trus terfikir benda2 yg nda patut2....ish3....mcm po budak2.....pat..pat.....haha....
emmm.....ni malam c tg smpai kL sdh.....mau p ambil dia lg ni nt karang jam12 sma2 abcie ngan c kat lg....sbb kacie keja malam gia....tp....alamak!!! ni malam last episod sdh tu drama cina ei....yg pulis2 tu...astaga!! eeee nda la dpat tgk ni....huhu..malas sdh daa sya mau ikut p airport ei.....emmm nampaknya nda la dpt tgk ni.....tp xpala.....nda sya brani ctau abcie....hehe....
nah....jam5.14 sdh....sya mau p mandi dlu...nt mau masak lg,tulung kacie.....hehe....bulan10 nt bertambah lg anak buah sya...hehehe.....jadi kena selalu tulung kacie....okay..time to sign out....tata..
GOD, thanks for everything.....thanks for the life u gave me.....sya rindu mama n bapa tapi ada kacie ma tg x sdh rindu betul...hehe...
sya dgr2 lagu rohani ni.....sya teringt tu note yg c girl kc tag sya...pasal fellowship....diorg mau bt fellowship nt hari jumaat ni....5hb march.....tapi time tu sya blum balik penang lg....huhu sedih betul sya oo diorg bt time sya xda....ada ckit sya rasa terkilan...sampai hati diorg bt time tu....sya x dpt dii join...huhu sdh lah sya sdh lama merindukan suasana spt itu.....menyanyi n ketawa ramai2 dgn kwn2 yg seiman..hmmmm sakiiiiiiiiiiiit hatiiiiiiiiii oo.......tp biarlaa....nt2 ada jg ba pluang tu.....sabar ja la pat......tapi memang sya geram oo....terkilan lg....kami sama2 p church selalu....tgk2 diorg bt fellowship yg diorg2 sja.....sedihhh btul bila terfikir.....sya tau jg ba sya bukanlah org terpenting tapi...............eeeeeeeeee sya mau join baaaaaa..........hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......................sya mau juga!!! huhuhu...mcm sya mau nangis aja teringat oo....tp biarla....biarlaaaaaa.......ish.....susah mau kc hilang tu perasaan terkilan baa.....sya selalu request bas utk p church stiap minggu, sya x pernah pun lupa diorg....bilang 'ging church', tapi diorg......hmmm....biarla tu.....tahan ja la pat.....biarla...biarlaaa......=.=
enough about the fellowship!!!! sya xmau lg fikir2 pasal tu dlu....nt nda pasal2 hancur ni laptop sya gigit nt..hahahaahaha.....mana tau gia marah2 lpas tu jd incredible hulk....hehehe bahaya itu tau.....bogel tarus.....ada yg 'utntung' nt dpt tgk show free....huahahahahahaahha.....adedei....noulo ko no ti pat..hehehe.....ni la sya ni..bila geram aja trus terfikir benda2 yg nda patut2....ish3....mcm po budak2.....pat..pat.....haha....
emmm.....ni malam c tg smpai kL sdh.....mau p ambil dia lg ni nt karang jam12 sma2 abcie ngan c kat lg....sbb kacie keja malam gia....tp....alamak!!! ni malam last episod sdh tu drama cina ei....yg pulis2 tu...astaga!! eeee nda la dpat tgk ni....huhu..malas sdh daa sya mau ikut p airport ei.....emmm nampaknya nda la dpt tgk ni.....tp xpala.....nda sya brani ctau abcie....hehe....
nah....jam5.14 sdh....sya mau p mandi dlu...nt mau masak lg,tulung kacie.....hehe....bulan10 nt bertambah lg anak buah sya...hehehe.....jadi kena selalu tulung kacie....okay..time to sign out....tata..
GOD, thanks for everything.....thanks for the life u gave me.....sya rindu mama n bapa tapi ada kacie ma tg x sdh rindu betul...hehe...
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