God... i don't feel regret... i just feel a bit guilty, for hurting his heart... God.. why am I being so cruel? i can feel that this is not me.... Patricia whom You love so much is not a kind of person like this... i know myself well... God....... i'm so sorry for having that bad feeling toward him... i don't to actually, but... sya x dapat terima...mcm sya kena kc bodoh2 ja.... sya sedar sya mcm mana...sya sedar.... hmm.... betul2 sudah tawar.........................sangat tawar..... sya mcm trauma sdh mau suka org.... hmm.... God, heal me.. :(