Wednesday, August 18, 2010
PERUBAHAN YANG X DISANGKA.....
17/08/2010...TARIKH ITU BENAR2 TELAH BAGI SUATU SEJARAH DALAM HIDUP SYA YG X AKAN PERNAH SYA LUPAKAN BUAT SEUMUR HIDUP SYA....PERUBAHAN YG X PERNAH SYA JANGKA AKAN BERLAKU SEAWAL INI.....EMM...I'VE FOUND MY FIRST....AND I HOPE THAT HE WILL BE MY LAST...HOPEFULLY, GOD WILLS......EMM....SLPAS TERLALU BYK DUGAAN YG DIHADAPI, AKHIRNYA TERMETERAI JUGA.....EMM....SEOGA TUHAN AKAN SENTIASA MENYERTAI KAMI DALAM PERJALANAN HIDUP KAMI....SEMOGA KASIH SAYANG YG SEDANG HADIR D HATI INI AKAN BERTAMBAH FROM TIME TO TIME....N SYA HARAP DIA AKAN DAPAT TERIMA SYA SEADANYA..... THANKS FOR EVERYTHING MY GOD....U REALLY SHOW ME YOUR GREATEST LOVE TO ME...AMEN....
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
sipiking....
Hari ni sya rasa mcm sya mau spiking laa....hehe lama sdh sya nda spiking ni...hehee....
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...
Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....
Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa
Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...
Ok, what i want to share today aa??ok, firstly about the unexpected thing happened this morning....it is not really a very big thing but i just want to release all ‘burdens’ (i guess) in my heart, and in my thought.....today, at exactly 12:53 pm,’ The Menatang’ (i used to call him with this name to protect his actual identity..aisehh..haha) added me in Facebook...i just received the alert message from Facebook since i activated my Celcom Facebook SMS...apuuuu!!! my heart was very2 shocked when i saw in my cellphone “........(his name) has added you as friend in Facebook.” Uinaaaa???? Aishhh finally....he added me himself....instead i added him, he added me first...hahaha....same as in Friendster last time, he was the one who added me first, not me!!! Haha....but i still wondering, what is that actually in his mind that make him suddenly add me uh? Emm....i’m still thinking about it, and till now, i still hasn’t approve him yet....hehehe....actually i afraid...that he will hack me, he will comment my posts, my statuses and my photos with bad and irritating words.....emmmm...i afraid it will happen....aduii....what a negative thinking of me, right? Maybe....he only wanted to befriend and reconnect (again) with me....maybe...just maybe....i’m still wondering.... God, please....show me the truth.....don’t let me regret when i already approve him....AMEN...
Next, it is about ‘The Guy’.....he is my friend, my new boy friend here....boy friend, not that boyfriend@lover yea.....hehehee.....i’m still single ba ni...hahaha....i don’t know whether i only ‘perasan’ or not, but i can feel that he likes me.....based on how he treat me, what he said to me....aishh crazy aeh....but i really don’t want it to be true.....arrrggghhhh....mampui oo if it’s really happen!!!! I don’t it , i really don’t want it to happen.....i don’t like him, and i hope that he won’t feel anything special towards me... but.... why he seems like to sit, to hang out and to be close with me??someone please answer me!!!! Many of our friends said that he like me, but is it really true??oh God...please don’t let it be.... Sin Jie said that, when we sit together, he always want to take the chance to hold my hands, tarik my hair all....what is that means?? Is it means that he only want my body and not my heart?? Maybe...yea, maybe there’s a truth of it.....i need to think and analyse this thing deeply.....but.... although maybe later he propose me or what, i won’t accept him....yea, i won’t accept him...coz i can feel that he is not the one who can make me happy, who can make me feel secured when i’m with him.....frankly, SYA BETUL2 TAKUT BILA DGN DIA....dia macam lembut tapi ada kalanya, dia seperti seorg lelaki yg ganas, yg mahukan sesuatu daripada seorg ppuan.....persoalannya, benarkah apa yg sya terasa tentang dia tu?? Yang kununnya dia tu suka sya.....hahahaha..nonsense laaa.....dia x mungkin suka sya.....sya yg x sempurna n x cantik ni dia mau suka???huh kirim salam aja la...tapi sya tetap mau ckp, sya comel baa.....walaupun da cantik...ekekeeke.....nah tinguk ter-keluar sdh BM sya dii....aiyah, nda buli ni tau, nda sdh sya fasih berbahasa English oo....tunggang terbalik sdh grammar sya, mau buat karangan pun cm kura2 n siput babi saja...nasib baik la babi tu sadap...hahahahhaha......tapi nda apa la, soro po.....daripada xda tercakap langsung, buli lg menghantam kalo kna tnya lecturer.....hahahaa.....emm back to story, biarlah The Guy tu...nda mau lg sya fikir pasal dia...x penting juga...kalo benar dia ada perasaan sma sya, xpa...x salah juga ba....tapi sya x akan terima dia.....my heart is not for him...he won’t be my first boyfriend....hahaaha....
Huh.....panjang betul sdh cerita sya ni....pnat sdh sya bercerita...hahaha.....nanti lg la sya cerita lagi...hehe....oyaaa....hehehehhehehe...sya betul2 bertuah sbb ada abg yg hensem!!!hahahahahhhahaa
Tuhan.....tolong kuatkan imanku...kuatkan hatiku agar ia terus teguh.....AMEN...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
RESULTKU..... hehehe
Emmm....hari ni masuk seminggu sdh syabalik penang slpas bercuti lbh kurg sebulan.....hmmm setakat ni blum lg ada apa2 assignment....baru minggu pertama kan, blum lg tau tu next week yo....huish mesti byk assignment tu...hmmm....malas o sya kalo banyak yo ni....haish....tapi kalo dgr dr kata2 lecturers nampaknya begitu la ni...huhuhu....kuroyon po be...mimang begitu no bogia kalo sdh masuk sem2 yo....hee terimala ja la Pat....hmm....
Nah kmi masuk2 ja semester 3 ni trus ada result semester 2 dipaparkan d student center d Waziria.....wuhuhu....tapi bgs jg ba, bila awal result kluar awal juga la kluar duit nt....hehehe....kali ni sya kena betul2 berjimat, kena bajet betul2 sdh sbb byk betul keperluan utk sem3 ni....yg paling utama ialah, beli tiket kapal balik sabah nt..hehe...sdh kami kna kc tgk takwim akademik utk sem3 ni....cun2 1-11-2010 kmi punya cuti....sampai 20-11-2010 kalo nda silap sya....huhuhu 3 minggu ja...bukan itu ba yg menyedihkan....yg plg menyedihkan itu ialah, XDAPAT BERKRISMAS DGN FAMILY tahun ni......hmm..nampaknya tahun ni berkrismas d Penang aja la ni....huhuhu...xpa la, tahan ja la Pat.....(padahal nangis2 sdh ni..huhu)....aiyoo terlupa pula sya dgn apa sebenarnya yg sya mau tulis ni..aish tu no gia melalut nopo karaja..hehehe....bah, sbnrnya sya mau ckp pasal result sem2 sya ba ni....happy betul ni sya...walaupun bukan yg terbaik or tertinggi, tp at least sya sdh mencapai target sya utk sem2..iaitu, mau dapat lebih drpd 3.75 n kc kalah tu org....n thanks God!!! Betul2 dapat oo....hehehe...sem ni sya betul2 meningkat..naik 0.10 woo...hehe..sya happy tapi ada keciwa ckit la sbb sya pnya CGPA x mencapai 3.80....dakat sdh ba, 0.02 ja lg....huhuhu.....emm tapi xpa la sem ni kena struggle lebih lg....harapan bapa yg tercinta tu...hehe....ok ckp pasal result sya....hmmmmmmmmmmmm......sya dapat 4 A, 2 A- dan 1 B menghasilkan 3.83!!!! yeahoo.....hehehe....Medical emergency tu ja ba yg spoil. Kalo nda A dan A- ja keputusan sya tu..haish....tapi nda pa la, apa2 pun sya sngt2 bersyukur pada Tuhan!!! TERIMA KASIH TUHAN!!!! AKU SAYANG DAN CINTA PADAMU!!! WO AI NI!!!!I LOVE U!!SARANG HAE YO!!! AI SHI TAE RU!! UPUS OKU DIAH OI TUHAN KOGINAWAANKU!!! Heheheehehee.......nah Tuhan, happy betul sdh anak Kau ni....hehehhe...mcm tu aja, tapi sya memang betul2 happy..sya happy bukan saja sbb result sya, tapi juga sbb Tuhan dgr doa2 sya...skrg sya betul2 yakin Dia benar2 sayang dan cinta akan sya..I REALLY LOVE YOU, MY GOD!!!hehehe......sabar ko Pat....Tuhan sdh jawab tu...dia bilang “ I LOVE YOU MORE MY DEAR CHLID!!!!” eehehehehehe.....(^_______________^)
GOD, THANK U FOR EVERYTHING YOU’VE GAVE ME.....THANKS FOR THE RESULT, THANKS FOR THE HAPPINESS....I REALLY APPRECIATE THEM...DO OPEN MY EYES, MY MIND AND MY HEART WIDER SO THAT I CAN DO BETTER AND FULFILL MY FATHER’S HOPE ON ME.....I LOVE HIM SO MUCH THAT I DON’T WANT TO DISAPPOINT HIM....YA TUHAN, PERTINGKATKAN LAH USAHA KU SUPAYA AKU DAPAT MENCAPAI CITA2 KU DAN HARAPAN BAPAKU...AMEN!!! (^_^)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
tHe maKeOver....
Before.......
After....
Hehehehehe.....mcm ni la rupa kalo org yg x pernah bersolek tiba2 disolek....hehehehe pelik nopo itu wajah....hahaha tapi orgnya tetap sama, PATRICIA juga....hehehe (^____^)
After....
Hehehehehe.....mcm ni la rupa kalo org yg x pernah bersolek tiba2 disolek....hehehehe pelik nopo itu wajah....hahaha tapi orgnya tetap sama, PATRICIA juga....hehehe (^____^)pRopOsAL....
emm...mau dkat jam 3 pagi sdh tapi sya masih x tdo2 lg....aish...amu oku kodop boo ti...men facebook pun boring...tgh2 subuh mcm ni tersangatlaa boring, sdh la x ramai org chat, benda yg mau dikomen pun xda....aishhh....mata pula xmau tdo....mau jg sya ambil Zoloft kut ini...hahaha jgn baa Pat..nda bagus moti itu....hehehe.... Dalam keboringan ini, meninguk la ba kunun sya msg2 sya d hp.....emm....blum lg sya padam msg c Spongy ari tu.....hmm....nda tau la mau c jadi apa ni, mau c jadi gimat mangkali..hehe.....fikir balik ttg apa yg dia ckp ari tu....mmm btul2 x sangka oo dia msh x berputus asa lg.....ini sdh masuk 3 kali sya reject dia secara baik....tapi dia masih x mau give up..malahan kali ni dia betul2 mau propose sya utk jadi gf dia.....huhuhhuhuhuhu....hampir jg iman sya goyah dgn proposal itu tapi nasib baik Roh Kudus masih kuatkan hati dan iman sya....AMEN!!! hmm....dia memg baik, sangat2 baik.....blh dikatakan dia agak memenuhi segala kriteria yg sya mau dlm diri lelaki idaman sya.....sya tau dia blh terima sya seadanya, terima segala kekurangan sya....cuma satu aja yg buat sya x dapat terima dia.....HE IS A MUSLIM....hmm....sya bukan anti-Muslim, tapi sya memg x mau terima kalo dia adalah seorg Muslim....kalo saja dia seorg Kristian, memg confirm sya akan terima dia...maybe sdh sya tukar status ni skrg....hehehe.....sayang betul oo....tapi xpa la....maybe bukan jodoh kami.....kalo bukan dgn dia pun ramai lagi lelaki d dunia ni baa...sya yakin n pasti, Tuhan pasti sdh ciptakan seseorg utk sya....yg sesuai dgn sya, yg boleh terima sya seadanya, n yg paling penting ialah, dia adalah seorg Kristian, seorg pengikut Yesus....(^_^) ya, sya yakin dgn Bapa...!!!
hmm....tapi sebagai kenang2an spya len kali sya blh baca lg, sya post la juga conversation kmi tu...hehheehe :
SPONGY: Tricia, i thought to tell u something but i don't know whether i have the courage.
PAT: Uik???apa itu??hmm this's what make my curiousity trigerred suddenly..hehe
SPONGY: Err err are u sure wanna know abt it?huhu hw shud i put it yeah.....='(
PAT: Ya, i do want...but it's up to u whether u want to tell me or not..i won't force u..it's ur right..=)
SPONGY: Emm....emm...
PAT: Hmm....mesti kamu nak bgtau yg sya comel ni kan tapi kmu malu2 lg....hahahhahaahahahaha....(perasan betol)
SPONGY: Bkn Tricia, tapi yae, kmu memang comel.... (uinaaa kambang trus sya time ni...hehehe)
PAT: Hehe thank u..thank u... tapi...apa yg susah sgt nak bgtau sya tu?curiga betul....
SPONGY: Emm.... Is t rite if i say "I LOVE YOU" ?? And i mean it....
duinaaaa time sya dpt ni msg terus berdegup kencang ni jantung sya....sya betul2 terkejut, mcm kena kejutan electric ni.....huish....bkn x pnah ada org kc luah mcm tu sama sya, tapi...ini mcm betul2 serius baa....kin takut ni...uish....then sya jawab cmni...
PAT: Hehe..knpa tiba2 pla ni? kmu bergurau yea? hehe...
SPONGY: If i said i am serious?
PAT: Hehe jgn ba..kmu ni memg suka kenakan sya...hehe
SPONGY: Haish Tricia nie, hehe lulus ujian..=P
Uik??huh....sya xtau apa maksud 'ujian' yg dia maksudkan itu, sbb sya tnya pun dia xmau jawab...tapi sya x kisah jg, sbb sya happy dia men2 aja....tapi jauh d dalam hati sya kata yg dia memg serius....tapi sya x juga perasan la, sya tau jg sya ni mcm mana...mana ada org sgup suka sya ni..hmm...seterusnya...
PAT: Ujian apa?? oo kmu memg sengaja kenakan sya yea...huhu
SPONGY: Jika sya serius pun, Tricia akan kata sya men2..kn?
PAT: Ya.. sbb sya tau sya mcm mana...i'm not deserved to get the words from a gud guy like u..
ya memg itu la yg sya rasa....sya x layak utk terima ayat itu dr seorg lelaki yg baik dan sempurna seperti dia....hmm...then dia jawab.....
SPONGY: Eh, ke situ pula...u deserve better, Tricia...jgn merendah diri sgt yae...kmu lbh dr apa yg kmu sangkakan....no doubt, that's the truth....
woo....terharu jg la sya bila dia kata mcm tu....tapi sya tetap x dapat terima dia....lpas tu dia propose sya.....sya reject dia dgn cara baik dgn mengatakan " i'm sorry for declining ur proposal to become more than a friend to u, but i just don't want to let anybody hurt, neither me nor u...sya syg kmu, kmu kwn sya....plus, i also love myself...jd sya x nak ada antara kita yg akan terluka nt... Lgpun sya jenis yg tetp, kalo dah mula sesuatu, susah nak akhiri...rasanya kmu jg begitu kan? Sya minta maaf, but there's a boundary between us...except for friendship, it's free from all that.. But, this is different case,,,, Just if u are.........maybe i will accept u..once again, i'm sorry....=(" Wooo panjang lebar ayat sya kalo mau reject org....hehe...sya bkn apa, sbnarnya sya takut dia mrh dgn sya, then bt apa2 yg x bgs....lgpun sya syg persahabatan kmi.....tapi syukurlaa....dia x ambil hati...dia masih blh trma sya sbg kwn dia lg, siap jadikan sya adik angkat lg tu....hehe....sya tau dia kecewa, tapi apa blh buat...sya x sanggup korbankan cinta sya pd Tuhan Yesus semata2 krna cinta dia....sya xmau jadi org kedua yg bt mama n bapa susah hati....hmm....
Masa perkara ini berlaku, sya ada rasa sedikit kecewa jg....sbb sya dapat rasakan hati sya ada perasaan ckit sma dia...tapi x la smpai frust menonggeng....hehehehhe..... tapi apa2pun sya bersyukur jg....sbb cinta Yesus dan bimbingan Roh Kudus mengatasi segala2nya.....sya harap
jika ada lagi 'dugaan' seperti ini terjadi pd sya, Roh Kudus x akan tglkan sya....=)
GOD, thanks for everything.....thanks for the strength u gave to my heart, that i could resist the temptation....i'm very proud to be declared as Your daughter.....i was born belong to You, and hence i will end my life in Your name....ALLAH BAPA, biarlah segalanya berlaku mengikut kehendakmu, bukan kehendakku....AMEN!!!....
hmm....tapi sebagai kenang2an spya len kali sya blh baca lg, sya post la juga conversation kmi tu...hehheehe :
SPONGY: Tricia, i thought to tell u something but i don't know whether i have the courage.
PAT: Uik???apa itu??hmm this's what make my curiousity trigerred suddenly..hehe
SPONGY: Err err are u sure wanna know abt it?huhu hw shud i put it yeah.....='(
PAT: Ya, i do want...but it's up to u whether u want to tell me or not..i won't force u..it's ur right..=)
SPONGY: Emm....emm...
PAT: Hmm....mesti kamu nak bgtau yg sya comel ni kan tapi kmu malu2 lg....hahahhahaahahahaha....(perasan betol)
SPONGY: Bkn Tricia, tapi yae, kmu memang comel.... (uinaaa kambang trus sya time ni...hehehe)
PAT: Hehe thank u..thank u... tapi...apa yg susah sgt nak bgtau sya tu?curiga betul....
SPONGY: Emm.... Is t rite if i say "I LOVE YOU" ?? And i mean it....
duinaaaa time sya dpt ni msg terus berdegup kencang ni jantung sya....sya betul2 terkejut, mcm kena kejutan electric ni.....huish....bkn x pnah ada org kc luah mcm tu sama sya, tapi...ini mcm betul2 serius baa....kin takut ni...uish....then sya jawab cmni...
PAT: Hehe..knpa tiba2 pla ni? kmu bergurau yea? hehe...
SPONGY: If i said i am serious?
PAT: Hehe jgn ba..kmu ni memg suka kenakan sya...hehe
SPONGY: Haish Tricia nie, hehe lulus ujian..=P
Uik??huh....sya xtau apa maksud 'ujian' yg dia maksudkan itu, sbb sya tnya pun dia xmau jawab...tapi sya x kisah jg, sbb sya happy dia men2 aja....tapi jauh d dalam hati sya kata yg dia memg serius....tapi sya x juga perasan la, sya tau jg sya ni mcm mana...mana ada org sgup suka sya ni..hmm...seterusnya...
PAT: Ujian apa?? oo kmu memg sengaja kenakan sya yea...huhu
SPONGY: Jika sya serius pun, Tricia akan kata sya men2..kn?
PAT: Ya.. sbb sya tau sya mcm mana...i'm not deserved to get the words from a gud guy like u..
ya memg itu la yg sya rasa....sya x layak utk terima ayat itu dr seorg lelaki yg baik dan sempurna seperti dia....hmm...then dia jawab.....
SPONGY: Eh, ke situ pula...u deserve better, Tricia...jgn merendah diri sgt yae...kmu lbh dr apa yg kmu sangkakan....no doubt, that's the truth....
woo....terharu jg la sya bila dia kata mcm tu....tapi sya tetap x dapat terima dia....lpas tu dia propose sya.....sya reject dia dgn cara baik dgn mengatakan " i'm sorry for declining ur proposal to become more than a friend to u, but i just don't want to let anybody hurt, neither me nor u...sya syg kmu, kmu kwn sya....plus, i also love myself...jd sya x nak ada antara kita yg akan terluka nt... Lgpun sya jenis yg tetp, kalo dah mula sesuatu, susah nak akhiri...rasanya kmu jg begitu kan? Sya minta maaf, but there's a boundary between us...except for friendship, it's free from all that.. But, this is different case,,,, Just if u are.........maybe i will accept u..once again, i'm sorry....=(" Wooo panjang lebar ayat sya kalo mau reject org....hehe...sya bkn apa, sbnarnya sya takut dia mrh dgn sya, then bt apa2 yg x bgs....lgpun sya syg persahabatan kmi.....tapi syukurlaa....dia x ambil hati...dia masih blh trma sya sbg kwn dia lg, siap jadikan sya adik angkat lg tu....hehe....sya tau dia kecewa, tapi apa blh buat...sya x sanggup korbankan cinta sya pd Tuhan Yesus semata2 krna cinta dia....sya xmau jadi org kedua yg bt mama n bapa susah hati....hmm....
Masa perkara ini berlaku, sya ada rasa sedikit kecewa jg....sbb sya dapat rasakan hati sya ada perasaan ckit sma dia...tapi x la smpai frust menonggeng....hehehehhe..... tapi apa2pun sya bersyukur jg....sbb cinta Yesus dan bimbingan Roh Kudus mengatasi segala2nya.....sya harap
jika ada lagi 'dugaan' seperti ini terjadi pd sya, Roh Kudus x akan tglkan sya....=)
GOD, thanks for everything.....thanks for the strength u gave to my heart, that i could resist the temptation....i'm very proud to be declared as Your daughter.....i was born belong to You, and hence i will end my life in Your name....ALLAH BAPA, biarlah segalanya berlaku mengikut kehendakmu, bukan kehendakku....AMEN!!!....
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
rindu.....
Emmm..lama sdh sya x update blog sya ni....sebulan lebih sdh..huu.....busy baa dgn assignments, tests, quizes yg berlambak2...adoooi....kepenatan kebetulan kesayaan keakhir2an keinian..nt next week ni ada exam lg..huhu....ni pun singgah kijap ja ni, sbb mau share something....x tahan sdh knun...hehehehe.....
Sebenarnya sya rindu betul sma mama sya ba ni.....bukan mama ja, tapi juga bapa, kakak2, abg2 n anak2 buah sya...sya pnya langu2 x berapa kna rindu....hihi tp rindu jg la..haha..tapi yg pling kna rindu tu mama la....hehehe...maybe sbb mau dkat sdh mother's day kan.....hehe...
kemarin petang mama call sya...tiba2 ja ni....dia blg mula2 dia call dg sya tp xdpt....hahaha yala memg pun xdpt sbb hp sya masih ber-off, kna cas ni sbb naawian botiri....trus last2 dia call sya pnya clcm...hihi kesian betul, sdh lah num dia tu dg..mahal moti bila call clcm....ngam2 lg time tu sya tdo, pnat ni study dr pagi smpai petang(haha knunlaa) cpt2 sya sambut sebaik ja nmpk nama "Mamaku Sayang"....mula2 sya srh dia col bilk dg sya sbb sya sdh kc on hp, tp dia blg xdpt jg..ish2 kesian betul....then last2 mama blg "xpala..sama jg ni yg penting dapat dgr suara kau..." emmmm...sob..sob....dui terharu pla sya, x la smpai koturu romou la, sebak aja ckit...hehehe....mama tnya bila sya balik, dia blg rindu betul sdh dia sma sya..huhu kalo dia rindu betul sma sya, sya sangat2 rindu sma dia......huhuhu....dia ckp lg...dia rindu mau bceta sma sya, mau tgk wajah sya yg comel ni (aiseh ni tambah2 ja ni) hahaha...tapi betul la....hihihi...boring sdh dia dua org ja sma bapa d rumah, bergaduh aja dorg mcm budak2 ja, sbb xda sdh kwn lain kan....Tg pla sdh smbung bljr blik....emm....ada lbh kurg 18 hari lg ba sya blaik sabah sdh...tunggu sya aa, ma....hehe...x sabar mau tdo d tilam sya yg empuk tu..hehehhe.....
tapi rindu, rindu juga......exam mesti ditempuhi dlu baru dapt balik sabah..huhu..minggu ni baru study week tp mood study sya pula down....adoi....siodop nopo sya...ish amcm la ni...maan kuoto ti mato ti...ish3...nda buli oo..hehe..jgn Pat....jgn.....tapi apa2 pun sya harap dpt hadapi exam dgn baik n tenang..bukan harap, tapi mesti!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!! chayo2 Pat..good luck..hehe =)
*menyimpang kejap......
hari tu.....30/04/2010.....satu lg perkara masuk dalam "hari ini dalam sejarah hidup Patricia Binti Suidi".....selama setahun 18 hari sya d cni, itulah kali pertama sya keluar berdua dgn lelaki....hehe..sapa lelaki yg bertuah yg dapat keluar dgn pat tu?(aiseh bertuah kunun..hahaha)...dia ialah....P***!!!! hahahaha....lelaki itu....sya masih igt, dia lah lelaki pertama yg bertegur sapa dgn sya pada hari pertama sya sampai cni....yg plg sya igt dia pnah kata sma sya "u have a seducing smile".....waow......hahahahha...tp x sngka skrg dia dah jadi kwn sya pula....tapi kmi keluar bersama bukan p dating, tp sbb dia mnta teman p makan....sya pun xtau napa dia mnta sya sbb setahu sya dia ada rmai lg kawan....ntah la maybe dia segan kot mnta teman dorg..hmm....mula2 memg sya menolak, sbb time tu malam sdh (tp xla lewat sgt)...lgpun sya xda kwn sbb Sin Jie balik rumah...huhu....tapi sya kesian sma dia sbb dia smpai call sya, blg dia lapar betul....jd sya pun terpaksa la kc kwn..hehe..terpaksa tuu....hahahaha...sorry P***, sya terlalu berterus terang.... hmm sbnarnya sya bukan xmau kc kawan dia ba, tapi sya takut,.....takut kana gosip...kot2 ada org nampak kmi jalan berdua ja....lg, takut sya kana 'kacau'..hihi...sya tau sya harus pcaya dia sbb dia kwn sya tapi mcm mana pun dia tetap lelaki, my oppostie gender...so i have to be careful when i'm alone with him.....hmm....n yg terakhir benda yg sya takut ialah......sya takut NANTI DIA JATUH HATI PULA SAMA SYA!!!! hahahahhahahahahahahaha...perasan ba ko ni Pat...muka bagus kalo lawa(tapi comel ada hehee) ada hati pla mau kna suka...isk3.....x sedar dri betul...hehehehe biarla bahhhhh......ala bukan selalu baa..hahaha....=p tapi kan yg lucunya tu, time sya kluar dgn dia sya pkai seluar panjang (sudah semestinya) n baju yg besar...hahahaha memg x menaikkan nafsu langsung la....then hp2 sya pula sya letak dlm beg kecik (khas utk letak hp)..manala tau kan kot2 dtg 'nakal' dia blh la sya pukul kpala dia kuat2 guna tu...hahahaha...pintar kan c Pat????hahaha Pat...Pat...protection betul.....tapi syukur kpd Tuhan, xda jg la benda2 yg x baik berlaku...Dia mkn smbil kmi ceta2 ckit, then kmi smbung ceta d club house, pastu kmi balik.....dia agak gentleman jg (memg gentle pun..hehe) , hntar sya smpai simpang p rumah sya.....bolehlah tu....heehe...tu aja la....
GOD.....i don't know what is that actually You want to show me....but i hope it won't give amy negative effect to my life.....i really hope that You will light up my mind and heart so that i can sit the final exam calmly......i also hope that You will always give my family, my friends n myself a very good health, both in physical n mental conditions....thanks for everything, my Dear GOD.... i love You... AMEN....(^_^)
Sebenarnya sya rindu betul sma mama sya ba ni.....bukan mama ja, tapi juga bapa, kakak2, abg2 n anak2 buah sya...sya pnya langu2 x berapa kna rindu....hihi tp rindu jg la..haha..tapi yg pling kna rindu tu mama la....hehehe...maybe sbb mau dkat sdh mother's day kan.....hehe...
kemarin petang mama call sya...tiba2 ja ni....dia blg mula2 dia call dg sya tp xdpt....hahaha yala memg pun xdpt sbb hp sya masih ber-off, kna cas ni sbb naawian botiri....trus last2 dia call sya pnya clcm...hihi kesian betul, sdh lah num dia tu dg..mahal moti bila call clcm....ngam2 lg time tu sya tdo, pnat ni study dr pagi smpai petang(haha knunlaa) cpt2 sya sambut sebaik ja nmpk nama "Mamaku Sayang"....mula2 sya srh dia col bilk dg sya sbb sya sdh kc on hp, tp dia blg xdpt jg..ish2 kesian betul....then last2 mama blg "xpala..sama jg ni yg penting dapat dgr suara kau..." emmmm...sob..sob....dui terharu pla sya, x la smpai koturu romou la, sebak aja ckit...hehehe....mama tnya bila sya balik, dia blg rindu betul sdh dia sma sya..huhu kalo dia rindu betul sma sya, sya sangat2 rindu sma dia......huhuhu....dia ckp lg...dia rindu mau bceta sma sya, mau tgk wajah sya yg comel ni (aiseh ni tambah2 ja ni) hahaha...tapi betul la....hihihi...boring sdh dia dua org ja sma bapa d rumah, bergaduh aja dorg mcm budak2 ja, sbb xda sdh kwn lain kan....Tg pla sdh smbung bljr blik....emm....ada lbh kurg 18 hari lg ba sya blaik sabah sdh...tunggu sya aa, ma....hehe...x sabar mau tdo d tilam sya yg empuk tu..hehehhe.....
tapi rindu, rindu juga......exam mesti ditempuhi dlu baru dapt balik sabah..huhu..minggu ni baru study week tp mood study sya pula down....adoi....siodop nopo sya...ish amcm la ni...maan kuoto ti mato ti...ish3...nda buli oo..hehe..jgn Pat....jgn.....tapi apa2 pun sya harap dpt hadapi exam dgn baik n tenang..bukan harap, tapi mesti!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!! chayo2 Pat..good luck..hehe =)
*menyimpang kejap......
hari tu.....30/04/2010.....satu lg perkara masuk dalam "hari ini dalam sejarah hidup Patricia Binti Suidi".....selama setahun 18 hari sya d cni, itulah kali pertama sya keluar berdua dgn lelaki....hehe..sapa lelaki yg bertuah yg dapat keluar dgn pat tu?(aiseh bertuah kunun..hahaha)...dia ialah....P***!!!! hahahaha....lelaki itu....sya masih igt, dia lah lelaki pertama yg bertegur sapa dgn sya pada hari pertama sya sampai cni....yg plg sya igt dia pnah kata sma sya "u have a seducing smile".....waow......hahahahha...tp x sngka skrg dia dah jadi kwn sya pula....tapi kmi keluar bersama bukan p dating, tp sbb dia mnta teman p makan....sya pun xtau napa dia mnta sya sbb setahu sya dia ada rmai lg kawan....ntah la maybe dia segan kot mnta teman dorg..hmm....mula2 memg sya menolak, sbb time tu malam sdh (tp xla lewat sgt)...lgpun sya xda kwn sbb Sin Jie balik rumah...huhu....tapi sya kesian sma dia sbb dia smpai call sya, blg dia lapar betul....jd sya pun terpaksa la kc kwn..hehe..terpaksa tuu....hahahaha...sorry P***, sya terlalu berterus terang.... hmm sbnarnya sya bukan xmau kc kawan dia ba, tapi sya takut,.....takut kana gosip...kot2 ada org nampak kmi jalan berdua ja....lg, takut sya kana 'kacau'..hihi...sya tau sya harus pcaya dia sbb dia kwn sya tapi mcm mana pun dia tetap lelaki, my oppostie gender...so i have to be careful when i'm alone with him.....hmm....n yg terakhir benda yg sya takut ialah......sya takut NANTI DIA JATUH HATI PULA SAMA SYA!!!! hahahahhahahahahahahaha...perasan ba ko ni Pat...muka bagus kalo lawa(tapi comel ada hehee) ada hati pla mau kna suka...isk3.....x sedar dri betul...hehehehe biarla bahhhhh......ala bukan selalu baa..hahaha....=p tapi kan yg lucunya tu, time sya kluar dgn dia sya pkai seluar panjang (sudah semestinya) n baju yg besar...hahahaha memg x menaikkan nafsu langsung la....then hp2 sya pula sya letak dlm beg kecik (khas utk letak hp)..manala tau kan kot2 dtg 'nakal' dia blh la sya pukul kpala dia kuat2 guna tu...hahahaha...pintar kan c Pat????hahaha Pat...Pat...protection betul.....tapi syukur kpd Tuhan, xda jg la benda2 yg x baik berlaku...Dia mkn smbil kmi ceta2 ckit, then kmi smbung ceta d club house, pastu kmi balik.....dia agak gentleman jg (memg gentle pun..hehe) , hntar sya smpai simpang p rumah sya.....bolehlah tu....heehe...tu aja la....
GOD.....i don't know what is that actually You want to show me....but i hope it won't give amy negative effect to my life.....i really hope that You will light up my mind and heart so that i can sit the final exam calmly......i also hope that You will always give my family, my friends n myself a very good health, both in physical n mental conditions....thanks for everything, my Dear GOD.... i love You... AMEN....(^_^)
Sunday, March 28, 2010
DINNER...
Beberapa hari ni byk perkara telah sya lalui...one of them ialah perkara baru, yg sya xpernah alami sebelum ni...apa dia???dinner!!!! hahaha....dinner??apa barang ba itu pat..?? dinner la bah yg kena pkai bju cantik2, pakai makeup, dan makan bufet d hotel...hahaha....yeah, itulah perkara baru yg sya lalui semalam....adush!!! first time ni...first time sya pkai baju yg menampakkan bahu(yg sexy tu ba), bercampur dgn rmai org lg tu...first time pkai makeup( haha selalunya pure beauty ba ni wajah ni) n kc curl rambut (yg bukan permanent pnya)..adedeh...punyalah terseksa!! x pernah ba dalam seumur hidup sya pakai pkaian cmni n bersolek spt ni....27.03.2010, masuk hari ini dalam sejarah hidup pat trus..hahaaha....mimang ba picah rekod trus baa....pat yg x pernah pkai makeup, x pernah pkai pkaian sesexy itu(agak sexy la ba tu bg sya) tiba2 pkai pula..hahahatrus mcm bukan sya ba sya tgk wajah sya..macam amoi pulak...hehehe parasantut la ko pat...hehe xpa baa, ini blog syasuka hati la sya mau ckp apa pun....hehehe...lgpun x heran bajd mcm muka amoi...nenek moyang pun bukannya xdadarah cina...hehe nga malamtu baru knun terselah ke-cina-an c Patknun..hahahaha....knun..ekekeke
bah ceta pasal tu dinner, adodoi....punyerlahhhh....adalah ckit2 bikin malu....oya, lupa pla mau ckp, 3 org ja kmi p tu dinner....sya, c girl ngan c cory aja...yg len tu xmau pg...c boy yg knunnya mau pg x knun jadi...ada knun pertandingan rogbi dorg pagi kemarin...emm....bah, back to the story...wainah, walawei!!! terlambat ba knun kmi dtg tu dinner...c Anne lwat ambil kmi dr FM House...dah tu otw pun traffic jammed la pulak....adei.....lpas tu kan bila mau smpai sdh tu hotel c Anne pulak tersilap belok..adei....adooi jauh nogi...adush dgn pkaian yg agak elegant (sya la hehe) n sexy (girl n cory) brabis la knun kmi berlari ni..bwa projector lg tu..haha...malu eh...then, sdh smpai d hotel tu , xtau pula tgkt brapa...jd terpaksa la sya col c Arthur...dia blg tgkt 3...bah kmi pun berlarian terus p dpn lif...huhu nasib baik ada lif yg ada cermin,...huh, sempat lagi kc bgs makeup..hahaahhahaha....smpai tgkt 3 xtau pla mana pintu....col lg c Arthur...dia kluar p ambil kmi..masuklah knun kmi ni p dewan makan tu....adui.....smua org tgk kmi...alamak malu oo.....kami lah yg plg lwat...smua mata tgk arah kmi....dup dap, dup dap....sya dpt rasa smua kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya menumpukan pndgn diorg pd sya.....Then kmi kna bg tmpt d plg blkg...dr jauh sya dpt nmpk dsdh wajah c dean (budak ncom time d matrik dlu)..baaaaaa skali sya kna bg seat sblh dia...wuish...basar mata dia tgk sya.....trus c jude pla bg peace sma sya, sya bls ja....n bila sya tgk c dean, sya kata " hai dean" hehehehe n trus tunduk,....saya malu bama dia...sya malu bkn sbb sya suka tp sbb dia xtau apa yg sdh jadi pd sya..huhu....biarla..tapi tula ba kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya smua tgk sya....esp c Herman...uish dia memg knal sya...dia ada bercakap lg masya....mmm....then time persembahan pula, simple ja persembahan kmi.....kmi nyanyi lgu SHOUT TO THE LORD sja.....nasib baik ok jg la wlaupun last minit preparation....yg lg bikin malu, c Estranza kc umum ba yg sya ni kwn rumate dia, i know who he means....Asyraf....mentang2 la dlu c asyraf pnah col sya timedia ada...adei..biarlaa....then time balik FM House c Arthur yg ntar kmi smpai sna...jam 12.30 lbh sdh lg tu...sya tau dia siodop sdh tu sbb kmi pun siodop dah juga...tapi dia tetap ntar kmi juga....wahhh baiknya dia....wahhh..sya suka lelaki baik!!!!! hahahahahahahah Pat.....jgn gete....!! dia hanya menjalankan tugas sbg gentleman tu....(haha saja knun mau pujuk diri tu) tapi dia memg baiklaa....hehehe...tadi pagi pun dia sgup bgn awal sbb mau kc teman nek bas p church....hehe dia memg baik baaa.....responsible lg tu...hehe...pat..brapa kali sdh ko pui dia ni???ko ni....hahahaha jgn getePat.....tu jala ceta pasal dinner tu...terselit la pula kisah hari ni kit2..hahahha....
ni iklan ja ni...semala, lbh kurg jam1.30 pagi, menatang tu tiba2 sendmsg ma sya n say sorry for everything....apa dia nak sbnrnya?????hmm....biarla dia....tp yg plg bestbilasya ckp dgn dia "sya xmau kacau llki yg sdh berpunya, sya pndg llki single aja" hahahahha..baru dia tau....tu ja laa....
emm..panjang betul ceta sya kali ni.....hehe....emm mau p mandi dlu la ni..nt lg baru sambung...
GOD, thanks for everything......i love You,my God...AMEN!!
bah ceta pasal tu dinner, adodoi....punyerlahhhh....adalah ckit2 bikin malu....oya, lupa pla mau ckp, 3 org ja kmi p tu dinner....sya, c girl ngan c cory aja...yg len tu xmau pg...c boy yg knunnya mau pg x knun jadi...ada knun pertandingan rogbi dorg pagi kemarin...emm....bah, back to the story...wainah, walawei!!! terlambat ba knun kmi dtg tu dinner...c Anne lwat ambil kmi dr FM House...dah tu otw pun traffic jammed la pulak....adei.....lpas tu kan bila mau smpai sdh tu hotel c Anne pulak tersilap belok..adei....adooi jauh nogi...adush dgn pkaian yg agak elegant (sya la hehe) n sexy (girl n cory) brabis la knun kmi berlari ni..bwa projector lg tu..haha...malu eh...then, sdh smpai d hotel tu , xtau pula tgkt brapa...jd terpaksa la sya col c Arthur...dia blg tgkt 3...bah kmi pun berlarian terus p dpn lif...huhu nasib baik ada lif yg ada cermin,...huh, sempat lagi kc bgs makeup..hahaahhahaha....smpai tgkt 3 xtau pla mana pintu....col lg c Arthur...dia kluar p ambil kmi..masuklah knun kmi ni p dewan makan tu....adui.....smua org tgk kmi...alamak malu oo.....kami lah yg plg lwat...smua mata tgk arah kmi....dup dap, dup dap....sya dpt rasa smua kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya menumpukan pndgn diorg pd sya.....Then kmi kna bg tmpt d plg blkg...dr jauh sya dpt nmpk dsdh wajah c dean (budak ncom time d matrik dlu)..baaaaaa skali sya kna bg seat sblh dia...wuish...basar mata dia tgk sya.....trus c jude pla bg peace sma sya, sya bls ja....n bila sya tgk c dean, sya kata " hai dean" hehehehe n trus tunduk,....saya malu bama dia...sya malu bkn sbb sya suka tp sbb dia xtau apa yg sdh jadi pd sya..huhu....biarla..tapi tula ba kwn2 dr matrik yg knal sya smua tgk sya....esp c Herman...uish dia memg knal sya...dia ada bercakap lg masya....mmm....then time persembahan pula, simple ja persembahan kmi.....kmi nyanyi lgu SHOUT TO THE LORD sja.....nasib baik ok jg la wlaupun last minit preparation....yg lg bikin malu, c Estranza kc umum ba yg sya ni kwn rumate dia, i know who he means....Asyraf....mentang2 la dlu c asyraf pnah col sya timedia ada...adei..biarlaa....then time balik FM House c Arthur yg ntar kmi smpai sna...jam 12.30 lbh sdh lg tu...sya tau dia siodop sdh tu sbb kmi pun siodop dah juga...tapi dia tetap ntar kmi juga....wahhh baiknya dia....wahhh..sya suka lelaki baik!!!!! hahahahahahahah Pat.....jgn gete....!! dia hanya menjalankan tugas sbg gentleman tu....(haha saja knun mau pujuk diri tu) tapi dia memg baiklaa....hehehe...tadi pagi pun dia sgup bgn awal sbb mau kc teman nek bas p church....hehe dia memg baik baaa.....responsible lg tu...hehe...pat..brapa kali sdh ko pui dia ni???ko ni....hahahaha jgn getePat.....tu jala ceta pasal dinner tu...terselit la pula kisah hari ni kit2..hahahha....
ni iklan ja ni...semala, lbh kurg jam1.30 pagi, menatang tu tiba2 sendmsg ma sya n say sorry for everything....apa dia nak sbnrnya?????hmm....biarla dia....tp yg plg bestbilasya ckp dgn dia "sya xmau kacau llki yg sdh berpunya, sya pndg llki single aja" hahahahha..baru dia tau....tu ja laa....
emm..panjang betul ceta sya kali ni.....hehe....emm mau p mandi dlu la ni..nt lg baru sambung...
GOD, thanks for everything......i love You,my God...AMEN!!
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