I FEEL JEALOUS...

Seriously i feel jealous on them....hmm... kalau lah kan... kalau lah sya nda buat keputusan sebegitu dulu mungkin sya akan melalui hal yang sama seperti yang mereka lalui hari ini... tapi, yalah nasib bukan kita yang tentukan melainkan Tuhan... menyesal? tidak juga tapi ada lah... apa yang terjadi pada diri sya pada masa itu bukanlah atas kemahuan sya.. kalau sya tau akan jadi begitu lebih baik sya stay saja di tempat yang sama... hmmm... mungkin nasib sya bukan di sana.. Tuhan bagi sya jalan yang paling bagus supaya sya tidak menderita di kemudian hari... menderita?mungkin juga lah.... atau mungkin sebab kerjaya itu tidak sesuai untuk sya... sya juga tidak tau.. biarlah bah sya lambat... orang kata "biar lambat asal selamat" tp sya rasa sebab sya lambat ni lah kemalasan sentiasa melanda diri ini... haishhh... mungkin sya patut ubah tu mindset ba tu kan..=.= erm itu saja lah mau cakap. malas sudah mau taip, nanti jadi tanda tanya pula. bye.

:) and :(

Wahhh it's been a long time since my last post... hehehe lama sdh pla sya nda post something dlm blog sya ni kan.. ish3... paling last sya post tahun lalu bulan5 ka kalo nda slp sya..hehehe... agak lama juga la kan.. setahun setengah juga la.... bukan apa.. busy ba kunun ni.. itu ari sya masih karaza sya mana ada masa mau update blog... apa lg mau online.. jarang2 ba dapat online.. ada broadband tp yang tepon punya je.. murah je ba.. tp sya sdh kc terminate..hehe due to some matters.. kunun... 

Atcually ba kan.. tujuan sya mau post ni.. sbb sya sdh x tertahan sdh.. indada urg kwn sya mau share ini perkara..huhu cian kan... other than my boyfriend, indada sdh ba kawan sya ni.. ada pun tp nda sporting..hee.. ermm.... nama ja kawan tp nda pndai faham perasaan org lain.. nah bgtu la itu... sbr aja la..

Yang :) punya perkara itu adalah.... ari ini masuk 1 tahun 6 bulan sdh kami... hureyyy3... syukur kepada Tuhan... nda sangka ow kan... mcm baru kemarin ni kami bercinta.. eseseseii...hahaha... tp sya benar2 happy... sbb:

1. kami dapat p church sama2... hehe and the homily was soooooo interesting.... it's about death... ngee~
2. sya dapat hadiah birthday awal...hehehehehehehehe (^___________^) trus ni muka sya..hahahaha santik lg birthday present dia tu... ada kata cinta lg tu...mestilah dr my darling kan.. hehehe... thanks my dear... i really love it!! i love u.. :))))
3. sya dapat patung panda... hehehehe... lama sdh ni sya idam2kan akhirnya dapat juga... hehehehe juga dr my darling... :) saaaaaaaaaaaaayang my darling.. hehehe (gali2 kan) hahaha over excited ba ini....hahaha...

Tp, di sebalik :) ada juga :(...huhuhu... seperti:

1. minggu ni mid term... biotech, organic chemistry sama statistics...huhuu.. seminggu sya d rumah xda pula sya dpat study...huhu matai la ini.... :'( sedih ow... takut lg...adeiii...
2. minggu ni juga pembentangan titas... aishhh malasnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............... sya benci3... but, i have to do it... arrrghhh +__+ sdh sya..huhu..

Itu aja yang sya mau kc luah.. actually teteda pun.. tp, sya nda mau keep sendiri... huhu.. oya, satu lg pla... tadi masa kami jalan2 d 1b, tp time tu mau balik sdh la.. terrrrrrr-jumpa ni dengan kazen dia.. oppsss! 1st kazen lg tu... hehe.. santik ow.. nah jagala jd buah mulut kazen2 dia bila dorg berkumpul nt... ish3... hantam ja la..hehehe >..<

Ermm.. itu ja la bt kali ini... semoga sya rasa lebih lega selepas ini... DAN....sya rasa sangat2 bersyukur sbb cinta kami bertahan sampai ke saat ini... thanks God.. :)  dan sya harap akan berkekalan smpai hujung nyawa...AMEN.. uiseh.. hehehe :P

OUR DAY... :)

~>This post should be posted yesterday, but due to internet problem, so it forced to be posted today... =.=

Hari ni birthday dia... hehehe... happy birthday My Darling... may all ur wish come true.... i love u.. :))

Gembiranya hari ini.........................syokkknyaa... first time dapat rasa seseorg itu btul2 syg sya... dan first time tgn ini dipimpin dengan penuh kasih sayang...satu tangan yang sudi meminpin tangan ini seerat2nya, seperti xmau melepaskannya....depan org ramai lagi tu... hehehe... rasa sangat bahagia........... terima kasih Tuhan... dia dapat terima sya seadanya.... walaupun sya x sesempurna orang lain, tapi dia tetap mau menyayangi sya.... :) thanks God for creating him... i really love him... as how he loves me... again, today is our declaration day.... officially become a couple..hehehehe :DDDD yang dlu2 tu bunga2 sinta ja....hahahahha

Thanks God for today............You light up my life again today............. i am veeeeeeeeeeeeeeery2 happy today..............yahuuuuuuuuuu.............yippppppiiieeeeeee yihaaaaaaaaaa......... hehehehe :) I love You God... :)))))))))))))))))))))

PRAYER FOR BOYFRIEND.. :)

Dear Lord in heaven, I come before you asking for direction, divine guidance. My Holy Father I'm in love with a boy but I need your approval. I need to know if this is the person you want me to be with, if this is the person you desire for me? Father God only You can see his heart and his intentions, everything seems perfect but is it? Is he truly a godly man, does he love you above all, does he honor You when I'm not around? Lord, only You can see my future so I put my trust in You. If this relationship is Your will, make it flourish, make it grow, strengthen it to withstand the test of time. But if this relationship is not Your will, reveal it to us in a clear way our hearts cannot deny. I don't want to make a mistake, I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to be out of step with Your Will. "God, I pray for my boyfriend." Amen.

LOVE is here..

Oh lama sdh sya nda update blog sya ni oooo........banyak sdh cerita x ketahui...hehehe... apapun, sya rasa sangat bahagia sekarang... :)) sya harap kebahagiaan ini akan berkekalan... AMEN... thanks God, terima kasih Tuhan...............sya betul2 bersyukur..... bersyukur sbb akhirnya sya diberi peluang untuk merasai bagaimana perasaannya dicintai dan disayangi oleh seseorang dengan jujur dan ikhlas..... :))

I don't when we started, apa yang sya tau kami bkn lagi kawan... we are more than friends....hehehe... can u get it? >.< actually sya pun xtau mcm mana dia boleh syg btul sama sya...hehe.. tp yala kan, urg bilang......cinta itu x memerlukan sebab.... OMG..did i just said "cinta"??? hahahahahaa ohh pat..ko sdh jadi minah jiwang la wei...hahahaha... matai la ini matciam... >.<

Last night i asked him, "D......(censored haha), ko syg sya sbg apa?" then dia jawab........"Syg D... sbg yang teristimewa..cinta pada sahabat, dan yang paling terindah"........okay, and i just spotted the 'sahabat"...urmm was2 sdh kunun...hihi... and i asked again "sahabat?"...ohh jawapan dia.......gila ehhh... caiyah (cair) gue......hehe.. "Mencintai seseorang bukan hanya cinta..jadikan dia yang teristimewa, sahabat dan geng..barulah sentiasa serasi..sya mencintai D... lebih daripada seorang sahabat.." OMG!!!!!!! dear God.... :)) that are thw words that I really wanted to hear from a guy I like..angan2 sya dlu... and now...... ia menjadi kenyataan..bukan angan2 lagi......... oh God...... I am soooooooo in love with Your son... thank You Jesus...... thanks God... :))


Itu ja la.. sya betul2 x boleh simpan oo tuuuu.. senyuman sya nuu jauh sampai telinga...hahahahaa happy3......... :))))
 
God............ I LOVE YOU...........!!!!!!!!!! thanks for giving me this love..... sya akan jaga ia sebaik2nya......as how You want... thanks for everything God.... AMEN.. :))))))))))))))

THINGS I WANTED TO SAY TODAY.

Friendship is a noble bonding, don't spoil it with your acts.

I never disturb your things, so don't disturb mine and spoil them all. I hate it. Much.

I don't like competing, especially with the people in the list of 'Persons That I Love". So, please don't ask me to compete. I terribly hate it.

I am a kind of person that can't stand seeing people, especially my friends that are in trouble. If you ask for my help, I will try my best to help you. BUT please don't misuse it. If you do that, I will directly say to u "HEY YOU SUCK, GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!"

That's all..TQ.

A meaningful quote.

DECEMBER, I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

December December December............................kenapa kejam sangat sama sya? kenapa x pernah buat sya happy?? dalam tempoh 5 tahun (2006-2011) ni, selalu saja jadi bulan yang paling teruk bagi sya.... sya x pernah rasa happy or excited bila sampai bulan December.... argghhh... kalo bukan sbb stress, mesti patah hati....kalo bukan patah hati mesti perpisahan....kalo bukan perpisahan mesti sebab rindu.........kalo bukan rindu mesti sbb kecewa...huhuhuu...macam2 laaaa.... walaupun sya tau, sya sepatutnya happy December ni, yala sbb   ada Christmas kan...hermmm... nda tau laaa...

terus terang sya ckp, sya benci December.... hey December!! what have i done actually? why u never be good to me?? arghhh.... urg blg December ni bulan musim hujan... yaaaaaaaaaaaa memang pun, bukan saja hujan di bumi tapi juga hujan di hati dan di mata sya...uhuhuhu....exam pun makin dekat....apa lagi...kerja pun bertimbun.... heiii...mengeluh saja sya ni... cuba la kalo ada yg buat sya happy, nda trus sya mengeluh ni.... i wanna smile....tp, sya nda tau cm mana mau senyum sdh.... everything seems wrong in front of my eyes.... i don't know why.......why why why........................ =.="

The truth is... I AM MISSING...... hurmm.... but the thing that i miss really much is MAMA'S HUG.... hurmm...nobody will hug me here.. except my teddy bear.....hurmm.... i need a person ba... baru la ada feel kna hug...hehe...hmm...tp mana juga mau dapat kan? pa blh buat...

Apa2pun...yang paling penting, pray....yea... pray to God...supaya sya akan jadi lebih happy....